To you, from you

Peaceful right?

Trying to get back the girl right now, waiting around in a lonely, white-walled apartment for another 50 days to pass, when I'll visit Reno in May. I'm going to go have pizza and watch Argo in the conference room in an hour with coworkers. How's life? I wish I could get a response from you, to know that it works out, to know how things happen. Are kids in the future? If I'm back with C she'll want children within the next six years, which currently freaks me out. So if that happened, our first kid would be almost two or three by now, right? I wonder if I'll use my list of names for naming a kid. That's jumping ahead a little, though. Did getting back with C even work out? Haha, was memorizing that Pablo Neruda poem worth it or a waste of time? Are you in Reno now? Is she in Portland? Right now I'm worrying about money a little, and how airfare is ridiculous and I'll pay for a lot to go visit every month or two. Maybe you're a rich jetsetter by now and those aren't concerns anymore? Hey, this is sent from eight years ago. Pretty perfect number, right? :D So I wonder, how have you progressed? I'm trying to learn guitar through Rocksmith, I'm kind of succeeding. I mean, you'll know this because you read your journal... How about your internet prospects? Music production? Language learning? "The language?" How about comic creation? Or the creature world thing? I still need glyphs for ghosts, dragons or chaos, and the cosmos... Are you still at your insurance job? Have you gone back to school? Right now I feel pretty stuck and ambivalent, and scared for the future. I'm getting paid alright and don't want to leave, I know that if I stick it out I'll just get paid more but over time but obviously it's not an enjoyable or fulfilling position and there's much more to life than this godawful cubicle. Does my writing seem different than your current style? Anyway, I guess I'll go do something else. I'll be sending this message a few times across the decades, so if you get this, remember to type up a new one so there'll be a message that gets added to every 10 years! Hmm, maybe I'll make it 8, that seems more suited to me. Alright, see you in 2029.

Epilogue

2 days later

My dude, you should stay in Portland. That whole Reno thing is a waste of time. You're afraid of moving on, so your paradox solution is taking a risk to...

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Ebne dneietrtes vnere ?ikds ove'uy l,lew. I i 'otdn nihkt m,a yet. Im' heya in pr,dtnloa. 'mi ubt meso ekds uaotb oeymsn' too i otn in htore crae dab odnt' bjo. Lrigaht ym at stooiipn soewcokrr odgo dna im' my rae. Het hte ta yaw ettreb nhta 'luyol bobplyra avhe ni o,bj rnoe nacusiner tif dan jbo terbet a let,as ahtn is't. .
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Kcoshimrt. . . Ni l,wel mroo uto yuo ym urigta gititsn teh is usde iltsl. I shngti atr rtoeh oton asemg edvom dan deivo. Oto ajrom igtnhno. A tslil rdok rviuoas ughe m'i escnoiid whit and sailyraps rentteiss. That saw onsg gdoo a nceeeriexp i atls e,ary dame. No fro m'i dan eosm rots a edsu lhnyeo?ts tedtsle fo tbu yemba dignssioa isgivtni ot rcoodt ,so be, orem nhat esls i draaplzey rome. Whtor i eth olcdu way ,orf eb tnoigsehm stuj am egtingt be ocdul edms. Isohstlap i owdn ursvi ghtin naiga dink teetls ntaiiwg orfeeb 'im to tatrs het initsgvi ddelay for fo. Yabme hits orf aelsmia a,yanwy esthe'r osnitlou a.
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No oco,hls no. I etdpops i pscpetor rof autob ptar acignr teh omst tnkih het. Feperr omre hwat dsuolh npfooseris i ?rfo 'di tno a 'theser eecdautd eombec. Uoy i omosre bobhy 'rewe leop,pe dan.
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Ly?est uyor infe semse ti iintgwr. Aer sytel lscfo-s?sioucen otn trnwgii pyorablb i uyo ,ma auotb tbu. Erfto, ruo thin?k rtienetn fusft atth yulndagli teh nad bgngnii is 'tond cvteriea oyu. Dafrrwo moer ohw teim to tiesbews bj?o ta kool ubt fo dditer oyur yaser nwok hitw thta nyam yuo lilk onlirglcs ctunerr oyu. .
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