To you, from you

Peaceful right?

Trying to get back the girl right now, waiting around in a lonely, white-walled apartment for another 50 days to pass, when I'll visit Reno in May. I'm going to go have pizza and watch Argo in the conference room in an hour with coworkers. How's life? I wish I could get a response from you, to know that it works out, to know how things happen. Are kids in the future? If I'm back with C she'll want children within the next six years, which currently freaks me out. So if that happened, our first kid would be almost two or three by now, right? I wonder if I'll use my list of names for naming a kid. That's jumping ahead a little, though. Did getting back with C even work out? Haha, was memorizing that Pablo Neruda poem worth it or a waste of time? Are you in Reno now? Is she in Portland? Right now I'm worrying about money a little, and how airfare is ridiculous and I'll pay for a lot to go visit every month or two. Maybe you're a rich jetsetter by now and those aren't concerns anymore? Hey, this is sent from eight years ago. Pretty perfect number, right? :D So I wonder, how have you progressed? I'm trying to learn guitar through Rocksmith, I'm kind of succeeding. I mean, you'll know this because you read your journal... How about your internet prospects? Music production? Language learning? "The language?" How about comic creation? Or the creature world thing? I still need glyphs for ghosts, dragons or chaos, and the cosmos... Are you still at your insurance job? Have you gone back to school? Right now I feel pretty stuck and ambivalent, and scared for the future. I'm getting paid alright and don't want to leave, I know that if I stick it out I'll just get paid more but over time but obviously it's not an enjoyable or fulfilling position and there's much more to life than this godawful cubicle. Does my writing seem different than your current style? Anyway, I guess I'll go do something else. I'll be sending this message a few times across the decades, so if you get this, remember to type up a new one so there'll be a message that gets added to every 10 years! Hmm, maybe I'll make it 8, that seems more suited to me. Alright, see you in 2029.

Epilogue

2 days later

My dude, you should stay in Portland. That whole Reno thing is a waste of time. You're afraid of moving on, so your paradox solution is taking a risk to...

Stghni yeth ayw reew ekpe het. Suol na twih eht wdolr htiw yailes ryigtn ulytr but to up a yuo gle ekma 'eyruo si ontd' kobnre cpeal hwo ,aittadge raysc. 'sti erh imet wiht tspo to cgiran whta pesapnh. .
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S'tehre lwediword a gngio inamcepd lef?i llwe, no. Bhaitnreg pelepo edsaise strh'ee ihlgyh egnbi on horte ydaedl tsih opeepl ceuif,tsnoi deaspr ofrm. Tath aflhs uyo taht mega, keil od it's adcm?enip ebermrem. Ierlrteb ssmoytmp ohw nto dlyelre neve of rofm dan rpuse eht aer it's o,marnd 'sit fro 'sit ro tbu aleddy hetyre' sprdea omeones kind ciks, eth dsot'ne eelizar. Ea,ry het eben rof lats eohm ot mofr leiegbil ie'v eth intgwai kiowgrn be ccieavn rof. Wera dusetoi omst pepelo kssam. . . Ohewl ubota ,ont 'tdon evtycrsroon ot ehehrwt eont,hs sthi uoy i nnadsrteud btu yuo'd lsouhd ro eb es'terh htink. And ash nirtetne lcibpu adcehng eht doecruiss gae. Earllpal a aswth' doog. . . Igrht? ahrde t,ey uoy neerv dinm a'hnetv seatrhre eth tbuao ftal. Yap do i and s'it spcl?tiio woh ouy wkon wlfua you lrealy ttenonita t'don ot.
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Eneetidrst verne 'uyove kids? el,wl bnee. Dt'no m,a ety i tkihn i. In dpltrna,o 'im ahey. Tubao abd i i'm too otn job oesm dkse soemn'y btu nod't ni ethor cera. Ocroswrek dna ogdo my ta ym ptosioin rae m'i ihalrgt. A youl'l ebrtte obj ta snuaiencr ni ayw than ettbre the nero t,asel albbrypo dna ojb, tif anth its' eht avhe. .
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Ohikstrmc. . . Mroo sude otu uyo is in itsll ,well hte my stnitgi iatrgu. Vdmeo onot mages otehr i dna art oievd gnshti. Oot tongihn amorj. Plaayssri mi' ordk vruasoi tstnriees itwh llsti uehg and cinsioed a. Dame ogdo ahtt reeepxienc aws nosg a atls aye,r i. Orf to m'i os, no syloetn?h of sgiitvni i ,be more srot dgsaoisni moer a tcdroo leyapzrad edteslt euds athn nda essl soem aebym tub. Eb sutj tgngeti ma oucld the f,ro dsem ludoc i mhintgeso trhwo yaw be. Etetls fo for intgivis vsiur i kndi down ianag laydde ot olpshisat ginatiw tarts oerfeb 'mi ithgn teh. Eset'hr awyn,ya mleasai ihts fro maeyb a isolntou.
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On ,ohlsoc no. Sercptop omts buato for dptseop i tarp the i nihtk teh rgainc. Pfoosrsine ofr? eferrp ushlod ecuetdad ont a hatw i omre hestre' bemoce id'. Oyu bobyh oleep,p e'wre orseom and i.
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Ti yslte? fnie sesme uyor inrgtwi. Abloybpr ubt ?clun-eisoscfos nwirigt aer ltyse ton ,ma oyu aoutb i. Is nda ttah biniggn dnulaligy etienrnt hi?knt uro stuff you trieeacv het tnod' oer,tf. Teiwebss wdrafor nicolrsgl ?job iwht yuo tbu ynam llki yuo oyru more ot at tidred aesyr thta mite hwo look utcnrre wkon of. .
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Barasdeersm 'im dikn eelrtt realsee ot est fo stih ouy blolgyal. Ot eth sinyga the atht deaetrc a tgo upsl etrelt i mi,lae olpepe ndsoce meail. Sebwtei swa uopsesp ennsisatc fo tsih ntes raetf sthi smeit uoy eve'w iths an tbu tohes i a aciten?cd rmnbeu era of toms sdue. Ybame lyonel? 'eyrou oyu eamyb a issdme bctkoix. Sedttreric oinghp icpeos ershe' ceaxt orthe ahve het x-ufo-iotsr ecssca trelet of oyru aeovb.

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