To you, from you

Peaceful right?

Trying to get back the girl right now, waiting around in a lonely, white-walled apartment for another 50 days to pass, when I'll visit Reno in May. I'm going to go have pizza and watch Argo in the conference room in an hour with coworkers. How's life? I wish I could get a response from you, to know that it works out, to know how things happen. Are kids in the future? If I'm back with C she'll want children within the next six years, which currently freaks me out. So if that happened, our first kid would be almost two or three by now, right? I wonder if I'll use my list of names for naming a kid. That's jumping ahead a little, though. Did getting back with C even work out? Haha, was memorizing that Pablo Neruda poem worth it or a waste of time? Are you in Reno now? Is she in Portland? Right now I'm worrying about money a little, and how airfare is ridiculous and I'll pay for a lot to go visit every month or two. Maybe you're a rich jetsetter by now and those aren't concerns anymore? Hey, this is sent from eight years ago. Pretty perfect number, right? :D So I wonder, how have you progressed? I'm trying to learn guitar through Rocksmith, I'm kind of succeeding. I mean, you'll know this because you read your journal... How about your internet prospects? Music production? Language learning? "The language?" How about comic creation? Or the creature world thing? I still need glyphs for ghosts, dragons or chaos, and the cosmos... Are you still at your insurance job? Have you gone back to school? Right now I feel pretty stuck and ambivalent, and scared for the future. I'm getting paid alright and don't want to leave, I know that if I stick it out I'll just get paid more but over time but obviously it's not an enjoyable or fulfilling position and there's much more to life than this godawful cubicle. Does my writing seem different than your current style? Anyway, I guess I'll go do something else. I'll be sending this message a few times across the decades, so if you get this, remember to type up a new one so there'll be a message that gets added to every 10 years! Hmm, maybe I'll make it 8, that seems more suited to me. Alright, see you in 2029.

Epilogue

2 days later

My dude, you should stay in Portland. That whole Reno thing is a waste of time. You're afraid of moving on, so your paradox solution is taking a risk to...

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