A letter from May 04, 2025

Dear FutureMe, I hope you passed the exams. You have worked really hard for that and i really do hope you made it. Moving into different country, learning new language, being completly alone was not easy. and please,please be proud of it, you deserve it to be proud of yourself. But if you didnt passed the exams, so what? You matter more then one paper from the exams. and writing hard exams, in language which you learn during last three years, thats big thing. if you didnt passed the exams, please dont go crazy, forgive yourself and try to continue living, i know it would break you completly. i know you will have serious mental problems if you didnt, but, but, you matter more then that. and if you did pass your exams, try to live differently. try to stop being stressed about work, you know that those people at your work are toxic, and they dont like you because you are foreigner, you are going through racism whole day, you are being left out everytime because you are not like them.but thats the good thing, being like them would make you horrible person, like them. I wish with whole my heart that on that day you already passed exams, you have your visa, and trying to study new things for better job. no one has ever helped you with money or support, you did it all by yourself. so even its not what you wanted,dont be dissapointed, try to act and dont fell. remember our motto. if you can run, walk, if you cant walk, climb, if you cant climb,move as slow as you can. do not stop moving. No matter where you will go in which direction,remember that you came from nothing, and no one was supporting you or teaching you anything. Do forgive your parents for that, they didnt knew much to teach you. With love, yourself.