Dear FutureMe,
Hi. I just wrote a lot. I replied to my past self, but I also wrote another letter today that should be delivered on September 9th 2023. I am doing homeschool right now. I hope you can remember those awful feelings from January-February 2023 of crying myself to sleep without my phone and being so miserable. This is the worst time of my life. By a mile. I have never felt so depressed. I am planning to go on antianxiety/depressant meds and I am seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow. I tried to overdose a few times. I lied to everyone about it. Then I thought of jumping out of the balcony. I hope 15/16 year old me is over those feelings. I want to become a better person. I hope in three years from now I’m thriving. I hope I am still alive. If I am, I am going to ask some questions and although I won’t be able to see your reply, and take your advice, I want to be able to reply to myself, in the sense that I really can take the advice before even reading it. First question: how does it feel to have no braces. I’m not insecure about my teeth and hate them and want new ones and what not, but I don’t love the braces. My next questions is this: are you still reading? Not just reading for school, but openly buying books and reading them to fall asleep. I just finished flowers for Algernon and it was really good. The next thing I want to know is are you writing? I was thinking about either making a journal, or just a full on book..or maybe even both! I wanted to call it Mentally Fat. Because, I am, In fact, Mentally Fat. I thought it would be just about my life and the struggles since kindergarten. It could be similar to flowers for Algernon, with fake (but real) progress reports as if they were starting from. My first day of kindergarten all the way to where I am now. I could continue it for a few years with the “progress reports” and see how it turns out. I hope you follow through. I want to be someone when I grow up. Not necessarily famous, but I want to make a point in this world, and grow up to be really smart. I want to be a lawyer and graduate from Northwestern university or UPenn. My next question is how are the dogs? None of them died right? (Hopefully) Any new ones? Who is working for us as help? I cannot imagine Christina is still there. A really important question coming up..What school did you end up going to? (I am going to give a brief warning that there will be a bunch of popcorn questions starting right about..now.) Did you leave after 8th? How did you manage to stay in school? (If you didn’t get kicked out) How is hockey? What do you consider your “main sport” as of today? If you didn’t leave after 8th and stayed for 9th, did you make varsity club? How was commencement? Were you field hockey/hockey/crew/any other sport captain? Probably not hockey, but I am expecting field hockey. This text question might trigger a weird PTSD. No more mental hospitals right? Especially not Charlotte Hungerford I hope. Were you Mr. Przygocki, Mrs. Giese, or Mr. Greens prefect? How is Charlotte? Who are your REAL friends? That’s ok if you have none(which I don’t expect you will) but right now I have none. And that’s okay. I’m dealing with it. My trusted adult right now is Allie Molner. I am happy with that. I already wrote the conclusion to this letter but I want to edit it and ask a few worldwide questions. Have you moved houses? Have you gotten a new phone? What new phones are there? Any pandemics? Have any family members died? I am going to end the letter now and I imagine you are not thrilled about that, but I encourage you to write one today for it to be delivered in just about 3 years or so, and make another one next month to be delivered soon. Also, when you write back to me, please make it long. Although I will not see it, I feel that you will respond in a wholesome way. By the way, have you blown up on tiktok? My recent tiktok of Dallas just got like 500k+ views and I am VERY proud. These are really fun, and emotionally therapeutic too..be good, xoxo Georgina at 12:34pm from feb12023❤️
Epilogue
about 1 month later
Hi. It’s been just over three years since I got this letter. Some answers:
No braces is great! Got them off over a year ago.
I don’t read as much...
Omyrnae. Ltolai ofr erdigan glnesih. Ooso tub ti ti ti for kcepdi leki i nad scoohl is.
Nd’ot i wirte. At all.
Ear sdgo infe, alcuylta. No eddi eno. Lfte goa nhmtos wef a dujge. Nhtik cltaauly i mohsnt nvsee oag. Gto rtdei mmo mhi fo. Uyo fnuny ahiisnctr tneiomn. Letf 0242 esh in. Whlei a we i ttrnemeta ni in uhbcn asw eenwbte hda lhweo. 22 yuo ni mohe otnhsm oh go coen !that kwno uobat tmtareten ’ndto ofr d’nidt dna i asw. Uor is asw itchiasrn owh uovisrpe titonhg gieirnntste akcb ngcimo ecagr hrgt!i eueasbc hroseuepkee elft, cuyalatl. A resay euoplc ash for ahs ihktn rhee a nbee. ’essh oogd.
As i tenw i ot doinntmee, mentartet. Orfm ht9 ahtt th7 ddleim deidlm to asldet het fo of. ,t01h i ilotahps fo estr btu ni hwihc had nwe wkee ot teh a loscho dicsiue adn ttatmep twne fro for vaele nittol a in so eht i ttsarde the h,9t mhehiaspr mieyualltt em to adh ltfe. Weke ho at aws fo ti onw irtfs i’m the …cosohl oiufsn !llew. Cholso noe ciyt ttha a agirenln on its’ does the eno ni yda. Ot m’i gniog arpbboly e,yar xnte hrbic. Fi psenkiga thgri anem ouy merberme you ewre oudwl eht ot i own. Ntew eterh hcirlae. Nurioj wow !yera. I arey orneis l’li teher eb hkint oto. To em utdys frneca nsawt dad in my. Itknh i lgeoelc iatw llti ill’. Leelcgo oleecg!l. .
Tbuoa agrniiseddgr entw hte kacb ymeurs ernve i esecuab noqietuss.
I agrde ddi ryae ultin i to ti erunrdet with nmneeotecmcm go wsa gnlo tasl rfo in ocuht sa i i h9t sa loucd when aubesce asyb’b hre tsadye dan hoem. Aws fine ti. A ne,oryvee iltlte suges aws it ubt dkwwraa i eseign iecn. Usyrem nidog i ptsors i etfl tesppod nhwe. Nwo ’tnod rof i eysra itkhn vei’ pelyda slaet 3 yhcoke at. I onkw. Oyd’u blabproy ecsodhk be. Ssegu tnd’o tasiosapen botau waodasyn i ubt i,t i i cear eb to sued. Adetrts edfil oscolh utb ceykho to stla leaev sadi esteprmeb sa i dha i. Irteh ayer amenlyd hte rewe ntaiacps rof rsoine oman nda. Utb ti eethr lwuod antsw’ dan me ahve oamn i eenb. Bayb me tdol. .
Tmlnea sltahsipo. Tsdp no. Dtsp, edtgirreg esy tno lwel ’mi tub. In i hc cttioucnecn toshalip enrev to tnew abkc. Khtni wno to eneb i rewto ro 6 iv’e itsh 5 cnies i. I so wwo swa aevni.
Rtfecep no. Rettohlca fine is. Etnw rhe hnew ni i netcnomemecm to wsa i sb’bya uenj. A ta’cn you ?somn?th ss’eh ecupol i utgagndari evbelei doluc ni tujs. Ltsa erh grundi ilefd hes mra htnki raey i broke kiel okehcy. ‘42. Tuhacg hwit pu reneg rm. Edssmi wokn eh em i. Tell i oducl. Ilfe on wsa utjs i tetgon lsnyeh,to of is asd razeledi viomng sa dolre it but i’ve aprt. ,that hiktn ’tdon so and tsju atubo hmi ntfoe i idd i. Lal at yltcuala. Ok ahs’tt nda. Im ko.
Sosueh ont veha deomv.
17 onw noheip got hte 1,6.
Dmsapcein on.
Egrta amngadr satl yam ddie.
I eth ,yhae o’dtn imnd dgnnie ahtt teteslr. Wietr aevh efil i hoelw my to mroe.
To i’m cakb oigng swa sgyer’ cieunnot etrwi nwo hwcgnita antw and uabcees htirg taoanym ot i nto dan. To you id,d datnew em knwo i euebcas but i. A sya i i hug igve epreprad up scmoe psat oucld nad lkeucb athw ym dan enxt iwhs lfes ofr nad eb. Thninog eicn gnwinar but evha a ererppa ,em dcoul lttlie eeuabcs eebn odwlu. I a wblo idd oga yauctla,l ryae no ikoktt up. Got sintgh,hid bkac i psta cnoe acbk aws emtttae,rn olko hte i as i ormf nivlig in ni. Pu, izedelar of i i had felt endhbi dan swa eyeevorn nwgor rtos. 2230 aery kiel ldo omfr 31 a. I eray lerta ralizee itunl a nad tdnd’i ti. Fo i hmeo ggeittn ym 2220 irctupe byadr i prifloe eebrmrme noe and to mfor ihgnnagc dan. 0225 swa ti. Fo hoopst i tnnghio btu ,sflyem no dha adh i. Ntasw’ ti inddt’ 2220 i dan realezi eyamorn. No me uiwthot vmode ppeoel ahd. Asw yaan,swy hatt guroh. Derti no it ueclop kokitt nda to a estim i idd iknht i wrok arilv go. Htghou oihntgn ryzca. Cnoutac kcdeah lol otg saldal teh. Erahskc unr in ’its by mseo up hicna ilslt ubt. I ehty fynnu t’is opst no’dt hiktn btu. Thngis oknw ’ylluo htta omes ethre or a ury’eo ni this be way iesenvur kaoy if tusj w,ceit ergidan perallal wehre si enppah. Tou dna ouy amke ilwl ti. Ti ubt teifnyield ewhre iemst d’nto heetr tiknh ekma l’luyo be oyu lilw lliw ouy uto,. Nda ohw i onkw? did ti do useebca i. Deam fo i ersatkd esmit of tou it deepest my teh elfi. Si itrhg tpfrece wno ti nto. Lla ta. Nto eon tib. Mayn sillt i esggtrusl evha. Ttha rtfugeal ktoo ehav onw dan kwno eno tgdae,nr i i ti od ntipo ot ont ta ofr bcaeesu btu ofr i thaw od ’mi. Iefl is soooooo so sacyr. Hte t’si rttuh. Eppole kicts liu,etmtyal usyelrfo yuo ’vie het untco evre mg,niov happ,en the ubt to aveh to seolsn hnsgti anelred, ttah utb is ndoura no adn adn tusj uoy only rsonep isegbgt g,o uaeescb ecom is ekpe. .
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I uoy elvo.
Nigsign off.
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P:5m35 mrahc 2026 t,6h - ieragon,g.
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