My hopeless romantic dilemna

Dear FutureMe, In one week is prom and graduation. College is coming soon and with that the end of an era. The amount of questions I have are endless. Did we get into our dream school? Did we end up with the person we liked? Did we make any new friends?I know you hold the answers to my various curiosities but I will learn to stay back. I may not be there yet but all I can say is I am beyond proud of what you have achieved. I do not know what the future holds but I trust in you and one piece of advice: enjoy life. Spend time with friends and family because it is not permanent. Talk to that boy you like because you never know. I know its hard to trust again after the last heartbreak, but open up and learn to show love to all. You may be wondering why the hopeless romantic title? I loved for the first time and got hurt really badly. They were talking with my old best friend behind my back( as all romantic comedies go). After we broke up, they went on to date for a while not even a month after we called it quits. This whole scenario caused me to close off hugely and my trust shattered. I somehow turned to reading and ended up with unrealistic fictional standards that while not impossible, seems too much to ask. But there has been someone who has gotten close. Smart , funny, and nice, almost as they had been created on ink and paper and brought to life. But the small issue is : I have never had a conversation with them in my life. Through shared classes, I've seen how they act but I cannot go up and talk to them. They sit next to my friends so I do occasionally see them but never one on one. That would mean a miracle on my part, a deathly dose of confidence. I don't know how it will all work out but my inference for now is watching them graduate and never seeing them again. Only God knows at this point. I would write more but it is impossible to sum up everything. Let me know future me.