A letter from Oct 02, 2022

Dear Future Soumya, I'm writing this while having a mental breakdown. I hope you aren't the same soumya anymore. I hope you're not missing out anything in the life, you're enjoying it to the fullest by being carefree and not giving a second thought to anything. I just want to say that this is your life, live it the way YOU want to live it, don't regret anything like "i should have done that or smth" and when you enjoy life, don't feel guilty about it like what if your enjoying too much? Life is meant to be enjoyed yes, even in the toughest of time you have to enjoy it. Don't feel guilty about having fun. I hope you're not like me today. I hope you're a more better version of myself who doesn't care about people's opinion and who isn't scared to speak up or who isn't bothered about the world. I hope you're enjoying life even if it's not treating you good. You're beautiful, smart and everything that you ever wanted to be you're all those things that you want. You're enough. You aren't lonely, I'm with you okay? If you're feeling lonely, it's just a part of life and it will pass away. Nothing is permanent. Stop calling yourself lonely when you don't even like people. Go out there buy yourself your fav food watch your fav show/movie read the book and enjoy yourself. You don't need people to get along with and enjoy. People are just a piece of ****. You belong with yourself. Enjoy every second and regret nothing. Do it alone. It's much more better when you're alone and not with some bunch of hypocrites. I love you <3. You deserve your own company because you're your best friend. Always remember it. I love myself hahahaha