A letter from Sep 18, 2022

Dear FutureMe, did it get better? did he respond to your texts? did you go on a date? or did he just not get back to you? if he didn't, im sorry. i am sorry we just no longer believe in ever being in a relationship now. i know he is the only one you probably ever trusted. or maybe it went really well? maybe he just had a busy weekend and it is going somewhere. right now that thought feels like its stupid and that it never works out for us so believing in it feels like the most pointless **** ever that will likely hurt more when you're reading this. right now i am trying to distract myself so that i stop checking my phone looking for texts and any sign that he is actually interested and not just leaving you on read, especially after tuesday night. but maybe this time we can be proved wrong. i really hope so. i really ******* hope so. if its **** right now just make sure you keep eating, keep painting, keep texting and going out with your friends. it will work out for us one day im sure. i love you. i hope you are laughing at this in a couple weeks and realise how dramatic this all was. i hope you're not miserable and loosing all hopes in any chance of ever finding love, and i hope you dont keep feeling like you're unloveable. love you always xxxx