A letter from Oct 2nd, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I am so proud of you at how far you have come in the last 10 years. From where you were at the age of 20. Having a baby, in an unhealthy relationship that was abusive, to unable to finish school because your priorities weren’t straight like you thought. To a lot of partying and living. You made a lot of great memories but hid a lot of pain. Right before turning 30 you wanted a healthier version of you. You took your mental health serious and put in work for yourself. Continuous therapy, dealing with your depression/anxiety, letting go of friendships & relationships that are not serving you. Creating an atmosphere that is healthy for you and your babies. Being more present for your babies. For your 30’s you have set the Intentions of peace, love, and happiness. To be a better version of yourself. You have left a relationship, which has been painful, but to make the Intensions you set for yourself to be true. You have realized life is too short to be Unhappy. & all through your 20’s you were Unhappy. The best version and happiest version of yourself will reflect in your boys. They too will be the best versions of themselves. I hope you have kept your goals in vision and keep knocking each one off of your list. Because you are capable of anything you set your mind too. You are strong, resilient, admirable, a leader, a loving mother, and a wonderful friend. Hold on to the people who fill up your cup when needed and don’t forget to keep filling theirs up as well. 💜 Love always, Me. You have grown so much from 20 until 30. Keep growing & glowing!

Epilogue

over 3 years later

Dear Me,

I need you to pause for a moment and really take in how far you’ve come because I know you don’t give yourself enough credit.

Life didn’t get...

You hpdoe ludow nceo eriesa like ti acimlygal. Tgo ni hreavie ni tc,fa ,ywsa aymn ti. Dan lpeope eth ltka tsmo rdcreai out oatbu ulod taht teerabakhr, nuonscfo,i etgwhi eiolnatmo asektcsb, n’tod iknd ouvey’ fo. Nad uoy ehre sltil yte rae. Rnygit ilstl. Ehwn rettb,e it onsihocg ltsli vnee rsthu.
.
Astp bgurtoh eth ysa,er tihs rnoaeth dorlw leif uyo veif baulufeit ni otin. Reeth a otrhme onw uyo era fo. Nda llteit uoy to hteer amushn vo,le who loko tyfs,ae ofr ndiaeugc. You how rea tsideep lfee ouy iginvg omre zreaiel ,syda ahnt osme you etmh.
.
Ddi tgrdauaed ibcrdielne yuo gsmonhtie - ouy. 250,2 lfet econ ni nsidhfei awht ilmbssipoe you. Spot ttah yesra wae owh nwo of uyo uoy dlwuo dha fo hse ?oag to reniovs be ivgyrnehte in.
.
Yoru ouy atlonpsireih ckab vnee terah ttha dna uyo enbe elave htrfo utohhg angai ash a lpuled sah ioehcc e,pldye ni dan ot emad eth dteest. Tsanw’ htat a awsnkees. A egttnsrh swa atht. Saw grtwho htat. It nda eyrniifrtg was csnhoigo flte tath you nnutcarei eenv uf,lesoyr wenh.
.
Tghri slto i wnko leef yuo nwo.
.
Sa dsik nad of yuo dia,stleo ekli h,yvea uryo otn ’oyrue vsoiner bste eht i leef fro ioghnws oknw up olyfsrue. Up uoy i aekw yuo nhgvteri-o ephanp dan kwon sihw wheol, ngelhia dan jtsu efre ,ppyah eelf clduo dulco ahtt.
.
Iths orkws hwo otn ’ashtt btu. Eanm adn eyruo’ iaflign ahtt tend’os.
.
Seqaru otn ouy abkc rea oen at.
.
Enmosoe tloso wno era owh sha you. Nsseaware. Ceepinreex. Dsrnibaoue. Lefe higrt eoloctndrl ,eaxinyt by dulo yudspt—o do,c fi oyur amyon,er ruoy yuo enibg llibndy emth otn uroy ehyt are own agnia your sir,dsenpeo eeriozgcn neev.
.
Otn si rhstitga a haenlig inle. I’ts syesm. It lposo. Essapu it. It rtrsseat. Ti han’etv dnneuo oyu tub yo’uve elki dna lfese etn,eyighvr etomessim.
.
Liinerset oawnm oyu tauob ttha twero rae yuo noce sn,gotr tilsl.
.
Reom ’ouyer own tnah cuaylal,t atht.
.
Bcseeua nda gngoi ti know nwo yuo ot pkee rpaat ielk sefel tills llfa whta.
.
Bneiigldru rofm ryuo ont pcael a aer vrvailsu you uhtt,r iefl fo.
.
Ryuo to aldwleo ktae rea time you.
.
Tmei daellwo dan are the elfe at mesa to yuo ads ohpufle.
.
Otn fgdurei tye out era vahe it ot dwllaeo uoy all.
.
Th:is what is stemrta.
.
Uyo are igrtyn.
Nogcisoh rtebet oyu rea.
Eher lsilt uyo aer.
.
Of be to and pdour ttha is shnogmtie.
.
Ened royu ondt’ isdk fo uoy refectp nsivroe a.
Oen hety eend rale a.
Haenilg a noe.
A eon wniggro.
.
Ear caxylet thta hwo is oyu nda.
.
Ioggn epek.
Sdya eth veen on qitue.
Teh eevn hvyea on ydsa.
Nweh not seorpsgr eikl you efle akgnim u’oery nvee.
.
Eauesbc are uoy.
.
Eon uoy mhcu lkoo fo gtrnasit ta ilwl htis reionvs ni seruyofl dna ,ady insittg will nnu,nkow ocsosmanip you bakc edpri os teh- het elef noe voderna—.
.
Oyu ear solt nto.
.
Uyo ear imeldd in het of ibeongmc.
.
Htwi ,eovl.
Em 💜.

This user has written an update to this letter.To see what they wrote, please

Press ← and → on your keyboard to move between letters

Write new comment

Load more comments