A letter from Jun 17th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I suck at writing letters and I have troubling putting into words my emotions and how I feel, I have so much to say but I struggle figuring out how to write them down ( in this case type), so lets give this a shot. I feel so much pressure at the age of 19, to figure out what I'm suppose to be doing with my life, I feel like everyone my age has that all sorted out and I'm just getting left behind. I honestly have no clue of where I want to be in 5 years and I'm scared I'm still going to be doing the same old thing and I really don't want that. I want to be doing something I'm actually interested in. I'm currently working at my local car dealership and its not the worst, but its not something I want to be stuck doing for the rest of my life, I want to get out of this town and live anywhere else but here. ( We will see how that goes....) I'm currently the ripe age of 19 and living through a pandemic. I moved out of home for the first time and brought my very first car!! So while a lot has happened I still feel as if I am still living the same old life I have been used to living the past 19 years. My 20th birthday is coming up.... and lets just say I'm not ready to be in my 20s, I should be excited for the new opportunities my life will bring, but I'm just scared, I'm scared that I will still be where I'm at now. I have come to the point in writing when I don't know what else more to say other than. I hope your doing okay. I hope you know your loved. Whatever you decide to do, you will be okay. C x

Epilogue

6 days later

Well past me what can I say, I am very surprised with how well written this letter is and...

Ohw saw doksche hwit einrsesxpg tefl nepo aols i ohw i ni.
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Higsnt smee ristf ym i nsghti hitw osem tsienewt ahev in by ma ma nyagis own ra,c onw nad vyer ncdgh,ae wadkrbacs ahev i sthi 'enrta i ggnoi hilew and bkca tpsrena eb nda ym my eyar i rledo tels ldos ma ot a lgviin yhte nleiietdyf hoem bgine.
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Spot earppih ryrinogw sntmho ihtw vhea i no eahv atlev!r eno twhi nad ewihl i ebst syaawl my i a uc'ltond krngiow do to aevh isdrfne i to i to evah caaand vais still do ciodisne oiyaldh e,adm for htwi eb eon dan on leeva twdaen od het dideced eclu i hte whta of ni lefi ym want ihtng i 2 nda.
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My i nt'do ptu heav liwl egt but still leif itniceord on cnageh i htaw ot do hits me ma sayer seom i ni wnat luce in nogphi gwron 5. Od what ehav tub obslyuealt all afils i no i eida illw fi it. .
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C x.
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