A letter from April 2nd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, It's been kinda tough lately. If been thinking a lot about ending it all, you know, Hannah bakering xD I just can't take it anymore but I'm trying. All I want is to finally be happy and live my life. That would be my dream ^^ I want to be a boy, have a dog (or more) and live how I want to. But it's probably never going to happen, idk. I feel like depression hit me hard but I'm too scared to go to therapy. I kinda don't deserve to be diagnosed because I feel like people had it so much worse, I don't even have trauma or ****. I hope that you're life is better now and that you're still alive. Try to keep it up and if you don't have short hair yet I'm coming to get you I swear. Please make me proud....