A letter from February 27th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, i hope your doing alright. i just hope i am doing well with social life, and i hope i am a friend with my classmates now. I'm just writing this because I've been distancing myself from everybody it's just because my conversation and social skills sucks. well this is not our topic, i just wanted to write this so i would know if I'm doing okay with the kinda of panic attacks i've been having and hiding cuz actually nobody knows. it's just that i try to calm down myself by myself. and why I'm doing that is because people around me don't believe in such a thing called mental problems or illness or whatever like if someone is depressed they'll tell them they're just faking sadness and that's just stupid of them. well the first person who doesn't believe that is my mom whenever I try to tell her or mention mental issues and stuff she be like NO YOU'RE NORMAL NOTHING IS WRONG WITH YOU i mean yeah and i hope so but that's not how it works. and that's the problem why i don't have with my mom about such deep and real conversations. it's we either talk about odd things or we argue about everything. that's it. well i'm used to it now. did i mention that i don't live with her yea, i don't know why I've said that but yeah whatever. bye.