A letter from February 16th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How are you feeling? I’m really scared, nervous and anxious right now. It’s currently 3 days before A’Level results release, but when you’re reading this, you already know your results. I just want you to know that we did the best that we could at that time without making extreme sacrifices, so whatever grades that we get, you don’t have to be happy with it, but please go easy on ourselves. We tried our best. I’m proud of us. From now on, I hope you figure out your path. Wherever the current takes us, we’ll make sure to go with it, keep afloat and never drown. Best wishes (like really, best wishes for us, I’m hoping to hear good news from you), PastMe

Epilogue

4 months later

Update for my PastMe!

I did - well, relatively okay, in hindsight - but the moment I got my results, I was dumbfounded. The first feeling I registered while sitting...

Ndhsa swa het my at my the cbak lestur orencr opmepisitadnnt hobt enar het pils, gdee hte hicuctlng illts aste at dawr,yoo fo of ascls. .
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A c orf csyiphs ftarvoieu eigens swa oe,sssln rlylea a d ll,a ,herysmcit to fo cnrghsui a bjceuts nteatd c ym orf rof mtos ttforuueann ei,trrtaelu adn. For i ubt a radge hothtgu i trebet at eptxeced dcoul ellw ealst sice,nsec nreve to do ym i do. As raituterel orf. . . Dot"n' dan ym oldt ym hbto lwli ostcilaontnu :xmea rhe rlleca lit aetenddt eiutrrtlae me yad a rahetec henw iq ofrbee ew r,wory ewi direnf uyo i enfi" do thwa. Eht ehs's o,reth yte ,a abceeus dna eon su of an c ,nogrw os oecdsr nworg ton a. Rus,e a usjtecb tllsi to degr,a idd i is ees( tawh eeucsbvjit ureearltti her?et) utb. . . Eardg of i teh wsa elef ll,a isth omts tuo gspoiantnidip. Epser agian vahe i oyu efmlys i gto my h?twa kown psot ot dna lmesfy fbeore lleyra ssstre uot ot rmiocgnap. Aer htere lwasay poeple owh wlli eb are brudme who dan em, hatn tramsre epople tahn em. Odgo ebngi hoeugn sa hppya is w'eer sa eavraeg lnog. Tsih tesl' ori,yssleu ahb,ti pesela ptos ishytt.
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R,scoe out doog that i ,tpino ta ,dba of oot rnak oot pstnio i a hicwh eehrti ilylsgth regeava htsi tno ecrsdo ebvao 0,9 is uaalcytl tno ycairfl 75 hdlsou. .
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Yda i cptcae dan drages tarfe acem sa ym i veen pdasid,epinto a hdeksoc or of tow to ceiaeprtpa flte sa much nmog,ip. Rof orf blauagry ficduflti shmta oo!t aveh hte eerw alnerge vene a orf osrdce tow sejtcub i rsue nad to esardg an otsm ntcpx,eeued seteh e,ppar ,scroe a. Sodcer of csbujest ei'v droup ofr us eleevbi erwe ever oshloc two acn yuo tehes alyler ni hetisgh the ,c ?hatt i am a. Lrtuy. .
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A osla oll ,cd/ anwt on ot an actf i nitop i ttha resco or msngaiu ni tou weebetn reehit the. Ti ta good i eryall k,usc hretie or 'im. S'atth i m,a suesg hwo i.
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Fo a sgetigb eth 5,7 rethe oajrm rp tccminnuamioo ftris sith a ourny,tc eipladp sa ni iwht ihtw i cocieh in susnevieitri ym ot. Nus, utn chi,eco i tltyonafruun,e feordfe for leyotlpecm dan dcneos swa rceejted naestdi ym oigslooy,c yb aws. Eanangmmet usebsnsi lwmai,nhee m,su me erfefdo. .
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Of tiwh up veen nfnuy s,kei" ot woh ibg goln i egeitneh in a for rmdea nsomincomtuiac het ifynlla had psueru eno emca rneev a disa - rdegee erasy my ton a uy"o i ifel, uoescr, a - dna rdma,e enurvsei eopn nhwe to. .
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Amngmtanee ni rscuoe eatccp teh bsunises ot i het end eddiecd. Tlisl me lead tnwa hweer to eurftu hist be cuold eppsahr teh ni ot i.
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Ym trsif vener btu ive' tish anyayw eb ym ohci,ec otntge nscdoe my iecohc iefl ni yam. Aslywa oeichc get grtsly,nea i esndco my. Ho lelw. Itnnierevnt,o aphprse a em ro eamc i'st cfmrtoo etrebt ehtes or phesrpa lla ss'e'ucxe eahpsrp fo i rae ,thpa adileng lmefsy dnveii wiht ot ot up oases'r'n i'st utsj tawh. .
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,ot ytr ulpelfceya ujst etma?rt nto 'im sya, we me lkie hte it ot rwdno wlsaay thap eiracrs sdeo 'tels otlaf rrucnte adn n,o twha erhrvewe erahetwv. Hyapp sl'te be. Tat'hs for i acn sak lla. .
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V,leo.
Rumeetfu.
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P. S. Ma mi' u,s fo rpuod i lralye. We hist, adn i hdra i ofr knwo roekdw tdcnsoiu rsefoft to'wn tuo owh. On! seog leif.