A letter from December 23rd, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, So you finally did it today! I'm so excited for you! You finally started got your Notary license. Aren't you happy ? I will become the best notary/signing agent making 80K a month! My e-comerce store for lupus will be the best selling self awareness brand ever! Tough Women will be the best non-profit organization in the whole world! You will finally retire your parents and pay off your car. You will finally have properties to own! Today I feel chill, lazy and motivated ?? I hope you accomplish these goals Saimeth!! Lani is looking up to you set her a good example to follow. I love raul we are doing good. I love my family and friends! By today next year you will already make $500K! You have already your dream body! I hope you are not shy anymore or insecure. Keep this for future success stories you have! I still have a lot to heal and deal with may anger and emotions. I hope by now this is gone. Congrats in advance you finally accomplished everything!! Rn you feel like **** but now looking back you did it!! 10:19pm <3 Take care! Sending you lots of positive hugs and thoughts! You can do it!!

Epilogue

almost 3 years later

Today is November 4th 2024

We have not accomplished anything above, we actually left Raul for good. This separation is not easy Saimeth, but everyday EVERYDAY you...

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