A letter from October 25th, 2020

Dear Future Delia : ) Hiiiii, I just got a perm today and I feel so happy!! It turns out good but i think it would look better when I wash it which I have to wait for 3 days lol. Are ur eyes focused on someone ?? I hope not cuz we are not simping over boys cuz they break our hearts. I don’t know what to do in the future tho, I’m thinking about being a flight attendant but my parents just keep telling me it’s like a waitress. I don’t mind tbh, I wanna do what makes me happy. I don’t need to be rich just happiness. Quynh just came in then go out lol, since he had a boyfriend, Idk abt that like it’s just different :/ I always think like does she ever does anything for her future?? Like exercise, learn some English but in the end it’s none of my business, it’s her life and she can do whatever she wants. It’s not even like a special day today but I found this website on tiktok and give it a try. I would loveee to read my thoughts when I was 15. I wish I’m in Vietnam rn :( but then again, I would complain and nothing is fair yk?? So I’m learning to love what I have instead of what I don’t have. I’m starting to love myself instead of boys ;)) I’m growing and changing. I don’t think I’ve overcome with body image but I’ve been working on my mindset that I am beautiful ❤️ I promised my mom that I will teach my brother Vietnamese and I will do that. Now I’m trying to limit my screen time to 2hr59min hehe. This one cute guy on tiktok is so good with advice so I’m following him for the best and I think it’s great tbh. I can be more productive and spending more time with my self hehe. My dad still looks young as ever but I don’t think he’s happy like he was in Vietnam and for my mom, she has more gray hair than ever and her eyes r kinda wrinkly same as my dad lol. I don’t want to see them get old, I’m pretty sad that they will die in one day. I want to see me get old and have a husband and grandkids : ( But I guess that is life like u can’t change it. School is fine, I don’t rlly have friends to talk to in class, I only see quynh in the morning, lunch and sometimes in the hallway. And for tai, well... not rlly much and I don’t rlly talk to him that much-like in 8th grade. I’m going for a run later, prob 5 miles. It makes me feel good but when I don’t exercise I feel like I’m lazy lol. So I just make time for myself to better up n be a strong woman 😏 remember the time in quarantine that I binged like a lot ??? Ugh I hated it, I don’t wanna remember that anymore and u, u DONT BINGE OK? It will get to nowhere and just make u feel worse unless u eat with family and important times like Christmas,etc. anyways if ur going through a hard time, I wanna let u know that it will go away and you have been through a lot with ur mental :’) You are a strong woman and many people loves u. It’s not about ur looks, **** that, ik we get self conscious and it’s okayyyy it just happens sometimes and the rest we r a bad ***** yahhhh. Quynh is playing changing on the piano for a while lmao. Oh and I’m still waiting to see if the mole is cancerous and if it is they gotta remove it. Hmmm, I guess I don’t mind if it stays on hehe but remove for the best maybe 🧐 and I even treating my acne nowww yay . I want CLEAR SKINN. OKAY I GUESS I GOTTA GO AND TAKE A RUN. I HOPE U HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY AND OH MAKE SURE TO GET A PART TIME JOB TO MAKE SOME MONEY SO U CAN BUY LOTS OF **** OKAYY??? I LOVE YOU MY FUTURE SELF AND HAPPY BURTHDAYYYYY YOUR BEST WISHES FROM PAST DELIA 15 YO