A letter from July 30th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How you doin!? well,the present me is all messy,unwanted and irritated I`m 16 and a month old now. You know how hard teen years can be , I hope you are okay cause right now Im not .Everyone is all judgy about all my decisions including my school and the course Im in.they made me doubt myself just cause i took commerce.ah!screw them. My friends too arent even trying to help me cope up with my lonliness.They are adding to the misery.My whole life is now a big WTF? Anyway if you are reading this STAY STRONG LOVE. Do not give up easily cause that is what I often do and I regret it a lot. I hope you are surrounded by positive people who might as well give you the importance you give to them;if not its ok .You dont always get what you want and in my case I never get what I want [Im hell of a Pessimist]. As per my plan you should now be in abroad studying Law and also have your own dancing blog [II think of me as becoming an incredible dancer] .I hope you are on the right path. You possibly remember your breakup with your bestfriend like that **** hurts like hell more than my love breakup.well I think about her every now and then.I know Im stupid.who`s your BFF now? lemme take a guess.A boy who wears glass and is the most handsome around.Hope Im right.[these are defo not my preferences ,its a wild guess I promise.] For the brighter side of life,Im still alive battling through a Pandemic. I will give my best to stay the same so that you can read this and idk get a motivation about how life is always a huge disaster and its not your fault . Let me give you some advice.Stay away from stupidity.Friends arent always there for you[sooner you realize the better ].Also not everyone you think is your friend.Dont let people take you for granted.LOVE YOURSELF.Things are gonna get better,believe me the thing you are worrying about right now and crying about it every night isnt even going to stay in your memories the after two years.You might even laugh about how silly you were.Time heals everything,EVERYTHING.Focus on your skin health ,Dont make me look older than I actually am.Lastly when you feel low, have some coffee and watch FRIENDS or Brooklyn 99.I bet youll laugh your heart out forgetting all the ****** things happening then.When nothing goes well in life,take a nap. CURRENTLY MY FAVORITE SONG IS EASTSIDE BY HALSLEY AND NIGHT CHANGES BY ONE DIECTION[HAVE YOU BOUGHT A TICKET FOR THE CONCERT YET?] Hope mom is happy and in great health.Keep her happy ,she is really counting on you.Dont let her down.Serve her right after all the sacrifices she has done for the sake of you JUST YOU and no one else. LOADS OF LOVE ,STAY SAFE AND STRONG.THE WAIT IS WORTH IT. LOVINGLY YOURS LAKSHMI

Epilogue

almost 3 years later

hii my very pessimistic self Lakshmi Aradhana

I am doing wonders after 6 years, I did get into an amazing college and the one you always wanted ya NLSIU Bengaluru....

Lal abuto seadum siodenic eb seinlt tath my ilfe ad irosste to daghecn da ot neo oully' treyivenhg llayre. Wesi eenb dna i hte hvae tgrhi gtrhi aplec vrye heav ngzaaim i swa mowoshe kcyul insrfde lepope em aodnur tmie dan i ni. A gnkltia tsdpoep rheot aws echa heolw hot ot itnhg dan i ti vlakaiam. Gnyitsa i no siad yuo flei ilke ma sortng tisll oesg. Eb esacu mfro syad i ma shpienrnit sdya dna gfielar to pdkespi very i wot fo a ni pg anrodu dopire iniwtrg oyu hneianc. Si ot tae trse naswt kaet ihts em olhaotcec thaw and god do. For ot so mhi oh adh asyre hsi wto slta levod ,muhc a i dwno hkresisw oyu cat. I gaina me mhi i c,mhu he so tslil ndsif ssim eohp. Seid kiel so i tshi yaw on 'udotwln own thiw all da ftca ehomtr it it tbu bte sietsr tehre dna biams chum ght?ti lmfyia kcab ppdehane mhreot nfu esath staf os reh erycrh agina so era adn we nsgtayi we nhet evlo teh of emth rewe. Dna dosg bmasi tem ttahs eascu rrhyce how rbroeht seikl we. Gao eenb wot aibsm psased osmthn waya t'nsha treag. Mi' fun ituhns ngnoa is my nda a ewn mih pup earft i edrnjui dtpuis he meet nnpshritei os os tshi ylgstihl eh eral kacb uiqkc rh'eset otg og ho aybb, mih si hell' paoeretd ubceon ettypr he lacl. Hvea negihetyrv uoy weonm awakeayt ilke eikl anodur oeds gso,e i emn orf i on liev elfi ou,t tbu da usges nem rolsfyu,e hstr,a het fro lnoy rokw uoy aer orfm tipusd ot eahv sthi s'hreet erehw nceoextpi era ,elif eth all ees. Eb yuro emal os anwser onn tpahtsrei tbes ayok egrat ro nrfseid ?sasgsle ohw is erthi ot lal i etiuqons oemwn ot **** gn twih apnom,osicn guy im nfirde rae you maf keli vahe my want iheetr. Namolr era vahe dfierns how male od *** i and. Aosl etrtel 'lil ot gaani and rseacd stunr so owh ont,hm lkoo tuo, oyur tneeitmcrur nokw ll'i ti li'lt owrk dna out rof mi xtne see seur citedxe reehst' at. Ta tno the felployhu and i to vgie ueirpct hte up anylnttsi kolo rgcea rargle vaeh. Illw bmrr adn ym ugetlu a itsh but d1 fam orf nr yub we fun adn ram ad i nto onsg sir v to torcecn did on yb go song in tcitek refivoat htot tnercoc hwo is i 2200 a no uwdlo iernuon i vhae abrbolyp ntaaaldekh ad. Eht wno ided almi oethl 4 'oded ish fo dan nypea fof tehm ear (:( erhet baloycn tjsu. Nwo t?h?si? a eksep lkie a igig n,ma rifa aim i tthsa is ubt edhsa )slgruegt iwchh pikc cnssenraeuy uoy hawt asrsone w wntgrioh oyu dha a(hd iedkl erenv eorbk h'es at uyro atth ylelra terfah hdrageut a y?setl?s os nyza lkie fof osla hyarr. R*-e** albmu es'h i more ihs lal ticso a ikng rahecp csdio ikss dna tlils ryrha ie,tm nttego usmic casanliooylc da yetsls new e,rrcea lctyrnee raleseed htwi oelv. I arbshi ssikign aiahdev nuf enbe aehv a tlo. Riosewr ghu foeicf,s iunrigfg tno od ebsgtgi klie in elstata i nto tilsl do ot nhte teh hsete temmno wrok tuo hyw od ojb my i aer ad anwt i naiotmrc ym mi dna ipsrsuut at igsnht. Oyu wnko slilt ouy rtwho gdrepnoni to fo ightr tboua lavaibenula tub nme ta **** srveac em ynrigc not i ptar dveaahi ti tis goonilk hatw nto nad do mi. Ushc eesnvr si ym het no lefi tesg mthreo ietm si e,nif tub all. Kya bey. Kly i nda vahe nuf halsl.

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