A letter from July 30th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How you doin!? well,the present me is all messy,unwanted and irritated I`m 16 and a month old now. You know how hard teen years can be , I hope you are okay cause right now Im not .Everyone is all judgy about all my decisions including my school and the course Im in.they made me doubt myself just cause i took commerce.ah!screw them. My friends too arent even trying to help me cope up with my lonliness.They are adding to the misery.My whole life is now a big WTF? Anyway if you are reading this STAY STRONG LOVE. Do not give up easily cause that is what I often do and I regret it a lot. I hope you are surrounded by positive people who might as well give you the importance you give to them;if not its ok .You dont always get what you want and in my case I never get what I want [Im hell of a Pessimist]. As per my plan you should now be in abroad studying Law and also have your own dancing blog [II think of me as becoming an incredible dancer] .I hope you are on the right path. You possibly remember your breakup with your bestfriend like that **** hurts like hell more than my love breakup.well I think about her every now and then.I know Im stupid.who`s your BFF now? lemme take a guess.A boy who wears glass and is the most handsome around.Hope Im right.[these are defo not my preferences ,its a wild guess I promise.] For the brighter side of life,Im still alive battling through a Pandemic. I will give my best to stay the same so that you can read this and idk get a motivation about how life is always a huge disaster and its not your fault . Let me give you some advice.Stay away from stupidity.Friends arent always there for you[sooner you realize the better ].Also not everyone you think is your friend.Dont let people take you for granted.LOVE YOURSELF.Things are gonna get better,believe me the thing you are worrying about right now and crying about it every night isnt even going to stay in your memories the after two years.You might even laugh about how silly you were.Time heals everything,EVERYTHING.Focus on your skin health ,Dont make me look older than I actually am.Lastly when you feel low, have some coffee and watch FRIENDS or Brooklyn 99.I bet youll laugh your heart out forgetting all the ****** things happening then.When nothing goes well in life,take a nap. CURRENTLY MY FAVORITE SONG IS EASTSIDE BY HALSLEY AND NIGHT CHANGES BY ONE DIECTION[HAVE YOU BOUGHT A TICKET FOR THE CONCERT YET?] Hope mom is happy and in great health.Keep her happy ,she is really counting on you.Dont let her down.Serve her right after all the sacrifices she has done for the sake of you JUST YOU and no one else. LOADS OF LOVE ,STAY SAFE AND STRONG.THE WAIT IS WORTH IT. LOVINGLY YOURS LAKSHMI

Epilogue

almost 3 years later

hii my very pessimistic self Lakshmi Aradhana

I am doing wonders after 6 years, I did get into an amazing college and the one you always wanted ya NLSIU Bengaluru....

Noe ym to ot tssreoi seinlt eifl eb ol'uyl niyevthrge ubato sedaum da nhgacde ttah sdoceiin all ad ylaler. Ukcly etim i ihgrt i and srdifne hte ruadon evry veah eppeol eisw pclae owmoehs nda haev gnaaizm i aws in itgrh eebn me. Ahec a ot hot nad it atginlk dppotes hloew hitng swa horte i avlimaka. Tngors leki ma isda oyu ltsli ifle goes no iyntsag i. Am orfm ineiprtnhs nihneac syad pikpsed to oyu gp nadruo dna ni two be a fo evry poirde esuac i aelfrig i dsya gintirw. Rets twha oeoccatlh od em hsit dan aet swnta god is kaet ot. Yares orf so ho lats sih otw a to hmi i adh wessihrk nwod u,hcm eldvo tac uyo. Eh i hmi i hm,uc ehop em os tslil imss nisdf nagai. Onw amsib eilk so htiw i?thgt nhet fo dan rthee srsite ti nad no umhc way iantygs we fnu os erthom aer ylmfai hemt stfa peepnhad rerhyc ew tmreho seid utb erh teb shtea voel caft the all 'wtodlun da it aiang erew os cbak htis i. Tem and seikl saceu how mibsa dsog ttsah ryhrce ew terobhr. Nebe ago wto edapss wyaa mhsont bsaim ts'ahn agert. Meet go nonga i raeedtop is iqkcu enw llhe' nda llca ogt itihsrennp yabb, os tfare a ym os tnsiuh bucnoe unf im' he is njuredi eh mih bcka pdtsiu ppu he gsthlily pertyt oh sthi 'eesthr imh rlae. Rmfo ees hits to lvei rtsa,h ,feli uoy wnoem sufr,elyo for ear da tbu u,to ptociexen hvea sode ahve eo,gs ounadr ikle i nem ouy ayawaetk segsu wrhee are on ryiegvethn i teh rof feli the 'tesher lla keil only stdupi mne owkr. Ear nno eusiqotn whti ebst gn be os eihrt mi to uory ntaw nwoem **** si ugy ilek or hwo rhteie evah ssseal?g nrewsa derfni gater ,ooaicnpnsm alem all i fma ierfsdn siherptta uoy oyka to ym. I elma nmoarl *** aehv owh frsiend ear adn do. Eurs crdeas ot tm,onh for ieectdx wkro nda nwko out loko i'ltl li'l nusrt so ees adn ltteer who out, l'li at etnx r'ehtes uertremnitc oury osla im aagni it. Ta oupyfhlle rpeiutc ot the hvea cagre i gvei lkoo ton dna rgarle pu eht ltsnytian. Og da guletu isr in i douwl nda hist hvae htot mar 0202 ddi by gons rbrm ot ctceonr i tno and who no ettikc uonnire 1d klaanadteh my rpoblbay on da tub afm vtfoeair tecrcno a orf wlli nfu we i is nr gnos a ybu v. Now peyna teolh his ailm fof are sjtu ed'od :(( 4 three of oyabcln eddi dna hetm teh. Hrdagtue eilkd won esekp senearucsny ami ciwhh pkci asedh rlelay uoy at afhert w (dha si woigrtnh giig sh'e a off i olsa a venre snoears keil yrhar sl??teys klie atht so znya a uyo rbeok thsta egtrlsgu) ma,n thaw adh ?hits?? airf ubt uroy. Ewn oisdc ceentrly *-e*r* sleyts yrarh kssi ldaeeres ehs' acrree, i rmeo olev clolayaiscon tgteon ,tiem lal mulab cimsu tihw a da cehapr ihs lislt dna ignk isotc. Tlo i been abihrs avdhaei kniissg ufn a eahv. Do ltils are obj uursptis why eht tuo gfrnuiig tno metonm rwko hten amnicotr nto ym gthsni my kiel steeh iesbggt i in natw im i ghu iowesrr eff,sico atlstae nad to da i do do at. Im ot sit uaalelabvin tohwr nwok ouy hawt do i eascrv ndoegnpir boatu uoy men em fo rigth **** litsl nto glkinoo ton dna yngcri ti iaehdav utb at rpat. Eth lla is but otehrm my gste no is feli cuhs miet nfei, vseren. Ybe yka. Ehav lyk dan i llhas fnu.

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