A letter from July 30th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How you doin!? well,the present me is all messy,unwanted and irritated I`m 16 and a month old now. You know how hard teen years can be , I hope you are okay cause right now Im not .Everyone is all judgy about all my decisions including my school and the course Im in.they made me doubt myself just cause i took commerce.ah!screw them. My friends too arent even trying to help me cope up with my lonliness.They are adding to the misery.My whole life is now a big WTF? Anyway if you are reading this STAY STRONG LOVE. Do not give up easily cause that is what I often do and I regret it a lot. I hope you are surrounded by positive people who might as well give you the importance you give to them;if not its ok .You dont always get what you want and in my case I never get what I want [Im hell of a Pessimist]. As per my plan you should now be in abroad studying Law and also have your own dancing blog [II think of me as becoming an incredible dancer] .I hope you are on the right path. You possibly remember your breakup with your bestfriend like that **** hurts like hell more than my love breakup.well I think about her every now and then.I know Im stupid.who`s your BFF now? lemme take a guess.A boy who wears glass and is the most handsome around.Hope Im right.[these are defo not my preferences ,its a wild guess I promise.] For the brighter side of life,Im still alive battling through a Pandemic. I will give my best to stay the same so that you can read this and idk get a motivation about how life is always a huge disaster and its not your fault . Let me give you some advice.Stay away from stupidity.Friends arent always there for you[sooner you realize the better ].Also not everyone you think is your friend.Dont let people take you for granted.LOVE YOURSELF.Things are gonna get better,believe me the thing you are worrying about right now and crying about it every night isnt even going to stay in your memories the after two years.You might even laugh about how silly you were.Time heals everything,EVERYTHING.Focus on your skin health ,Dont make me look older than I actually am.Lastly when you feel low, have some coffee and watch FRIENDS or Brooklyn 99.I bet youll laugh your heart out forgetting all the ****** things happening then.When nothing goes well in life,take a nap. CURRENTLY MY FAVORITE SONG IS EASTSIDE BY HALSLEY AND NIGHT CHANGES BY ONE DIECTION[HAVE YOU BOUGHT A TICKET FOR THE CONCERT YET?] Hope mom is happy and in great health.Keep her happy ,she is really counting on you.Dont let her down.Serve her right after all the sacrifices she has done for the sake of you JUST YOU and no one else. LOADS OF LOVE ,STAY SAFE AND STRONG.THE WAIT IS WORTH IT. LOVINGLY YOURS LAKSHMI

Epilogue

almost 3 years later

hii my very pessimistic self Lakshmi Aradhana

I am doing wonders after 6 years, I did get into an amazing college and the one you always wanted ya NLSIU Bengaluru....

All leylar niesidco hegncad ly'uol heyvtrgeni ttha feil dasmeu ot otsiesr ad ot ad toabu estlin eno eb ym. Wsie aws clpae i epolep evha ylcuk oohwsem i nagaizm dnseirf hte i me nbee rvye adn thgir ni tgirh vhea dan mtei donrua. Ti a i tho hace swa ot gkiltan nad heolw ikvmaala nhigt toehr ppsteod. Ma i ilfe dias no ngtrso ekli sitygna oegs lilts you. Asyd ichnnea adys eb doarnu gp mfor iwrgtni i dpkispe i uyo suace ni nda vyer otw niensrhipt to aeirfgl fo poirde a ma. Ot this sret take ctohalceo gdo nda thwa is do ate wtsna me. Aresy dha oyu to tasl ho a i for dolev so imh hsi cum,h tca iwkherss owdn otw. He i snfid illts so em mssi ehop i aniag h,cum ihm. Ingaa but yaw enphepda ehr heyrrc hrtee ftac adn da rwee rohtme hmcu no ew we dsie ti ibasm os ti own gsitayn ti?thg twih retohm esaht of etnh ftas liek dan fiamly os meht so bcak wd'utlno the stsier tbe this i lal are lveo unf. Hryrec adn mte ohw sgod ew sahtt leiks herbotr esacu smaib. Aawy saibm aog wto hsonmt rtgea edsaps nebe ahtsn'. Tgo hsnietrpin jnierdu eapdoter 'teersh so eh meet hell' gnaon oh ckuqi adn ckba alcl he eh is 'mi him ym yprtte sdtpiu tarfe rlea og mih hist pup i new htunsi bby,a noeucb si ylsthlig a os nuf. Ot tpdisu rmfo veha uyo tniryegehv ilek i flie wemon shit no ndoaru veha eherw essgu teh i era keli ees s'etehr uyo rea owrk odes reyfu,sol peinoctex but men ad lei,f ielv tar,hs ynlo het for nme ofr tu,o lla ayawteak eso,g. Ng enrdsif i yuo era or ohw so eifdnr egsssla? ym wnta opnsi,mocna hreti fma estb lal non aeml nmwoe iwth kaoy ehva mi be is to ratge aswenr aetpistrh stoqinue ekli guy ot irehte **** yoru. Leam od who ehav roanlm *** eirnfds nad i are. Uyor os seru kolo mi it at rdacse lt'il nxte elrtet okwr dtxeeic eet'hsr and ot dna snrut for to,u lsoa il'l kwno i'll how rutrteminec tuo see aigna o,hmtn. Vieg het eitcurp up gcare teh ta to adn pfheoluyl eavh nnailtyts i erarlg nto olko. Da my ot rnoccet dna oablyrbp thto hldtanekaa on nfu d1 is ienonru encrcto nr idd ueuglt go vhea afm ubt a liwl we nto who on v ybu i i isr ni orf rbrm lduwo ortafiev ogsn i htsi ttkeci yb ad 0220 rma nda a gsno. Wno fo 4 (:( liam het dedi acoylbn nad meht helto his stuj penay era d'doe rhtee off. Shaed anzy okber giig si rnoasse w ahtt groinhtw hhcwi oyu oruy ahtts kelid thaw i neyresnuasc os ouy pcik a a,nm h'se ?s?eslty erutaghd legt)rusg hyrra i?h?t?s ffo a had airf at elki rayell ami ekspe ikel won a but ahd( sola veren eratfh. Lubam a stoci ermo mt,ei da *e*-*r i eovl peharc all nwe tnetgo erre,ca ihwt aryrh hsi aacsoncolyil listl ceyelrnt dan cisod gkin ylstes imscu eeralsde s'he sisk. A dveaiah unf hrasbi i bene kginssi lto vhae. To in i wtan ojb my mi od het nrtmicoa sorriew at do i ywh ad ekil gsetbig tuo aer sehte lslit dna ghu okwr not tnmoem ont esatatl od ehtn sfo,cfei riuggfni nihgts my i sstupuri. Iegnronpd oyu owhrt me bnvaailluae utb at **** trpa cvresa ist not rhgti listl otn enm oyu do yncrgi it tahw fo i wkno lkongoi nad ot obuta mi vahaeid. Is lal stge mtei ym is hte cshu no fni,e tub file sevnre mhetor. Bey kay. Ylk halsl i hvea adn fnu.

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