A letter from May 24th, 2020

Csraed. A eb m’i ielf i of rsdaec lilw i dna eilhw my yadeeyvr ofr khtni. All we od sunrt egrirenssp ftfeces tmer out ahs nogl eht atulclya. A erh yuo hwere ouy wrodl vere tthhgou aroru,a nad ewr’e deivl ttg?uohh ovel was i’m tno w’eduvlo ysror who ni ehyhatl hwit. Od ceethar ot i orf a nipasso a ti litls ralely i nad evha am be gniog. B,trete hnkit layler oegtnt i ryult od e’ewv i. Nhtik nduof eddeen it dha yuo swatn’ you tiem i togthuh elvo tbu shti yuo ’ewev het atwh. Ppeole for edsnifr dolwr uoy hte uoy how ouy olduw vieg tow yuo ovle woh htta nad rfo aer ahev. I btu iltls or dan i a)t(rs n,farcse iaassr, to teh tlsa eblla adltek mite remrmebe ftqyeulrne odtn’ yuo tkla ecednac. I vree otsp hiknt ’uolyl tdo’n thme ivglno. Nlyfila duowl ceetxp ohgulath ont a ablproby did ot,taot we gte yuo eno. Wokn morf elov den a st’i i fmiertanc chhiw peom hte ohhtg,u uoy duwlo uoetq. I ot tlsil reve neht ofusc we meor opetry ovel hlgohatu rwite uoy ddi no. The abd etg eslph enislegf it tou. Irntwig weve’ ehery’t yas seniptsaoa thinsg islkls tboh dan twih meoridpv i tobua rou gnnsigi w’ere tlisl udlow and. Pl,ay in ldevo st’i os ruo did dna up mcuh joram atht it a i nde nwo i. Eht ltoetu wnhe d’notse eettarh ivegs an rdlwo kaem for su esnes. Up ginowrg is a rysca ttllei. Ont ’di od nay esrt’eh ot lerlya ikle utb ’erew sicttsruinno nede to ouy igdon for eibeelv hatw lwel etytrp. Dna ikthn i ont tub sih llew’ in now wya ever eb he otd’n dad tseir e’erw esolc whit. Stju ikd htat rsaee eht it nda orbn when onsdt’e erbemerm erew llfeailb saw a are opitmnrat lehwi we eppleo ’sti to eh npia,. Rewos getont s’mom. Rhe eprimov swa uoyr ddi i htealh owsrt atrmghien that wnko lawasy ubt evren. Eth to aazr ni whti fo ss’he nrvgdiioc srposce gvimon joe arlnicao htonr nda. Nad oyu eeoppl too you mtena rtuh ou,y sryor rysor veol who rae htta ttah vere to alizree teh oyln reew m’i ’mi ot onuyg. Lthagouh sdki ylon god,o btaou i nowk azra rea the. Uor a yesar yelarl atth eohm nda swa mrof odmve ofrm vecoderre insjut neo no hsa ewf aog. Lot a twhi orgwn ’hsse ltisl eb z also( eys nsghti to niogg ybba yaalws dluo) htsere’ oru irgl tub of s’seh. How i earscd knwo were uyo. Eht bad kard ngivheeryt owh all i snthgi wkon edseme ohw dan itme gto. Sles yas efrinriygt m’i ecsrad veah epeolp ttha sgihnt emse i ilslt i wokn utb uwdol i aemk. Noos ot chaegn tno aeilv dan iggno atsth’ illts ewr’e timenya. Im’ pshle zaerlei doluw uyo iknth ysa you bdcelrniie etnh nigaerh eomr i. Wtan ouy that ubt to ouy erbmmere ibgen ndedee be to levi ttah ehre i ulodw i fo eenv lwudo me way eifl o,f ofr be a ihtkn i ordup ni my rdpuo. Sbte not locge,el eht“ while st’i l”,cohso snrewte dan ddi do i allery ew pu ned elov ni. Tsi’ rou aer aer aamnzgi ubeacse tarsm hnwe rylela utsff agsdre abuto ew rcea we. But im’ am nkwo i reve ays lwil i d’i nto klei hwo eurs fi ot i. Btu ntihk thta it em kesam cpeesa tneh an yuo ypaph ,iaptn auclta ’ntod i na ti emor i ti slitl of veldo a,osnpsi swa. Duolw ealyrl is aeksm it alecp be lief rove itrgwin ryuo ayn tath eetirn uyor oot of lla eht snsee so. It uhcm uto hate ew duonf nda edrit kngntiit os ew. As hell it’s ynngiaon. Echar rhae ti htru uowdl ownk tuo ot going ton im’ i ot cumh rhe shit tbu uoy how ot. Freues swya stnanreudd lsilt ehs reh hurt dan in akcb tel i ot ym su to rgnyit mi’ into lfei. Wsa rreamdi ohtsop eth her omms tog no becokoaf i clyr,eetn hse. Aegv vreeesdd ehr rsoyr thta of dan cuhm seh uoy so vole ernve it mi’ uyro. Brhiatyd roeht did alcutlya kaec ady, i best ebka a i het meda orf erisndf ruo. You mean cj aredo inkht mhi is i dna uwold shi. Us ihcwh artdhe nerifldgir t,ae our eht btoau reven ervo ddi we orf etg haets. Ekwe ieerdfnft hhciw ist’ rof we reevy ikdn we t, o!by) fo a do jnyoe do noesinjcti p(ie!ssrur a. I to ludoc ni go altk temi bkac dan i uyo wshi. Ti uoy emda iposmre get taht etterb i uohrgth sighnt and. Life polepe yoru os ot rea aehv ehret hetm nad oyu hcihrse uckyl in aeyrydve ttah ’ruoye. Pyhpa we tpeerfc w’eer ubt r’enta. Lde’vuco i erev rehe thne elov otg woh omre gnmdiiea i ’ouery ouy uyo eeacubs. Keep rgnyti olutd’nw iddn’t i you rehe if be. Onwk up itmnpte,g neve edtir nkow t’nddi ubt so we vniigg ismeeotms taht oto i wsa i yuo. Uoy edtasy ’im evol aeseucb rhee adn i yuo.