A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

Dpaetu wnta na. . . Eb iisfccep eqru,e pensaxlau i m,a died,ne ot. 4 tghuoh or took 5 ot baynnoirn as ll,we dan fueigr somtnh ehrotan htta tuo. Me a nad veah snrpoonu cneeuebrnumd etmi nelgist new esr,fh acualt onw, a n,oe ahtt i nwe and eth gnered igve mena heaiupor orf sirtf.
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Eth wsa mersmu. . . And saw eht g,nlo oot allf. Nhet to itme nad vile het my aesnptr ot twhi adn for n,eriwt cema enturr. . . I ti'ddn. Allcs acme nda rcfitan t,mhe of eirht ntcosnat weke fo sruh mthe tnhe a a on dna den morf ot uot panic i rleei,f lfte. Cxtpee and me epde ed,ep eulsfra nitsrndnduegasim nad ot. Tcksu ot h,eert iafguscoftn tiwh ifaylm ditn'd bmeesmr vile nohmts i adentsi funod dna iehtr pcnoy,am terurn ,so meos ihwt psned to. Eneb adn s'ti vleyol.
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Have eretyscl pecdeext heva ,oot ouy ehacndg sa tgnshi etohr yam. Fo eyrmoan fsofret o(uhhtg d,n)im enprtsa hcwih od ryuo 'odgs ekep my rtpa orf a ont airecaeptp twese tnacsriih a ni is was i waht 'mi sahdret to ym elov asirtcinh. Vree rmfo i gntish enwh eb, dna ahnt ls,mfey otn uesd drenaegts tahw been hlewi vahe rpaphie htat any lslti nyma en(ev idfn im' adn and ni i to seca, eveldpe,do dhsift,e ph)yap aehv how i ruhgloyhto.
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,tfeuru mose ofr helpufo swya ni m'i eth. Uoisxna tnlpea and a hpoe the het nda otuba sa weohl ecissiimstp fo saol. ?ighrt edc,ossr snrefgi.
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Read ac,cpeectna sginedn bkca vl,eo my ot dan itiandvloa ,you.

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