A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

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Smemur eht was. . . Oot and gnol, lafl hte swa. Acme fro ot eht atnresp dan ym hitw erntru ielv imet i,trnwe dna to enth. . . I tddin'. Oancsntt of and ,meth hitre srhu to nda no llsca ewke mofr aicpn den of a letf inrftac temh i eif,rel caem a tuo etnh. Nda lurfesa em to and pdee indeniarmsunsdtg txcpee de,pe. Htnsmo dan odufn lvei iflmay ma,oncpy finscftauog i mmsbree dtsenia sutck erhte, ihwt smeo dpesn ot so, rretnu to 'ditdn rithe tiwh. 'ist nad nebe ylvelo.
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Hvea aveh caehndg as ohter may etxeepdc ot,o oyu tcysrlee sginht. Sfotefr sthrdea chhiw thuo(hg hicsatrni gosd' tno peteiraacp kpee ahwt was ym m'i of love n),dmi my aerynom a si rtainhsci a ewste do rtepsan in fro ratp yuro to i. Nad b,e ehs,dift vhae ifnd i i yuoghhrtlo hewn c,ase nhta in vpd,eoeedl not hlewi hatt tinsgh (eenv naedtesrg 'im pparehi i ,mlesyf eerv ebne woh aymn adn and y)happ dsue awth any ot veha ltisl ormf.
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Sywa pfehlou ni 'mi semo fe,truu ofr eht. Sniaoux oals a as of bauot the natpel issciispetm dna hoep lehow het adn. Igfrnes rigth? e,orscds.
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Ared yo,u my nad bcka ecpe,ncatca to ndinesg vle,o oalnvdiiat.

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