A letter from April 23rd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, First of all hi :) I hope you are doing well, at least better than you're doing now( cause if not, then you're fu**ed :)) ) Please please please tell me something good happened in your life, anything at all, something that proves it was all worth it...that it was worth fighting for... I know right now life is a ***** and is hard to live day after day feeling so heavy and worthless, but I hope when you're reading this everything is changed. I hope you're more organized and that you give more attention to yourself and your wellbeing. I can't Express it in words but you know how I'm feeling right now, I hope at the time you read this message, that feeling is gone. I'm sorry I hated you( i hope i don't anymore lol), I'm sorry I didn't treat you right and that I was so hard on you. I didn't expect it to be so hard to write this... I hope now when you're reading you're laughing at how dumb you were :)) But if life is still so tough, remember to keep going, to keep fighting... if not for you then for those who love you, do it for them. Maybe it will be okay next year, or the year after that, I don't know, but don't lose hope please, I'm fighting...so you should to, you owe it to me. Also what about A? :))) Did you get over him? I hope you did. Is he married now?lol I hope you learned those new languages but you probably didn't, I know you very well you lazy piece of **** :)) Also I hope you stopped caring what other people say about you and that you accepted yourself. Well, that's enough for now, stay safe and I hope everybody is okay. Be nicer to mom and dad please and to your siblings, they are all you have. Maybe give them a call right now, why not.