A letter from August 11th, 2019

Peaceful right?

hey lex, it’s weird that I’ve already written 4 other letters but I feel the need to write more. This summer has been a roller coaster of emotions, we experienced some good, some bad, and some ugly. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude but it’s just been so hard lately, i spent my summer chasing after mark, i tried to hard to make us happen but he didn’t want me. He says he still likes me but he always makes mistakes and he doesn’t wanna put me through that or something ?? I haven’t texted him in almost a week but I called him yesterday to see if he could help me and isabel get our car unstuck but he said he couldn’t help and then hung up before I could say thanks anyway. I’m really hurt and I wish I didn’t feel this way. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore, do I just wallow in self pity until my heart heals itself somehow ? I’m so lost and confused and I can only hope that we have our **** together by the time you get this letter. Oh also happy birthday ! make sure you get that tattoo over spring break unless you’ve decided not to then that’s fine! I hope that when I read this letter again I’ll be happier and that reading marks name won’t hurt. I’m praying for our happiness and I hope it finds us :) until we meet again, xoxo lex

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Hi lex :)

I remember that summer oh so clearly and i want to apologize for putting you through all of that hurt over a boy who doesn’t know what...

Igond h’es. Wsa heal hatt delireaz ovy’eu it os ni far yipt ouy noceexpit ot the ruyo llwedowa bda oyu t,haer ggoin teh (thwi odgo adsy) lfse renev deon fo lniut. Fo ew evlo ubt bcsueae apdi csohol awya adn ggion rsnigp scnei brkae ?do hetotger itlsl lil’ were’ heyt ktoo pga eeclogl go laaylcut to abkre ehret’s me eb up, avhe esa,scls ulfl ihst mofr etggtin ! si’t no ngtaik our otxtnsenein oru eewk of utb rfo arrlueg dan i’m asuce fro ot kreba tbu os lsscsae, is oaky erfe igtmh ntwe ignakt ew gloelce a ehva ecssals lfei we oru rou odt’n uor vciod. Nto ’she btu gtgntei tuhr enewdke aeymnro eb odte’ns my eoprns dna oiggn the ttoaot tub seno ’im tub su eesdvre si tup they tntgeig eanm enomose tno !!! i’m woh eewr never stih zridelae were’ stla i msea tin’s ot eaebcus we yte adn :) to phyap s’m a,gnsdiinpptio edicepr eht who with ardngie ieexpvnse guconsinf it. Eesvdser essme os so eh shi onw ta ahppy iwht dan sh’e ,babes cesuabe he ahypp tasth’ ti stael ogdo fg. Siw,hes eon sti’ tub fro tnnrieesitg ): rof egtra trhbyiad uro u iowkrng atnhk asw saol it na eepk ti saw eebn nirgayp i,spaphnes hte. Otuba gitgtne and rwdofra ycras 18 eth nda be tup sa it kdain to yeo’ur adn ,reom ahtt ot so upisghn ludco ): fun llayer sa ’tnis owh poaozgeli guh si we thohugr lla urht i’st i eekp ouy plseea htwro i wnok aipn oghuhtt sihw nad.
I’m nripayg our p,eanipssh itlsl fro.
O,xox 3< lxe.

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