A letter from August 11th, 2019

Peaceful right?

hey lex, it’s weird that I’ve already written 4 other letters but I feel the need to write more. This summer has been a roller coaster of emotions, we experienced some good, some bad, and some ugly. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude but it’s just been so hard lately, i spent my summer chasing after mark, i tried to hard to make us happen but he didn’t want me. He says he still likes me but he always makes mistakes and he doesn’t wanna put me through that or something ?? I haven’t texted him in almost a week but I called him yesterday to see if he could help me and isabel get our car unstuck but he said he couldn’t help and then hung up before I could say thanks anyway. I’m really hurt and I wish I didn’t feel this way. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore, do I just wallow in self pity until my heart heals itself somehow ? I’m so lost and confused and I can only hope that we have our **** together by the time you get this letter. Oh also happy birthday ! make sure you get that tattoo over spring break unless you’ve decided not to then that’s fine! I hope that when I read this letter again I’ll be happier and that reading marks name won’t hurt. I’m praying for our happiness and I hope it finds us :) until we meet again, xoxo lex

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Hi lex :)

I remember that summer oh so clearly and i want to apologize for putting you through all of that hurt over a boy who doesn’t know what...

He’s igndo. So evern lhae ouy cpoieentx hte done tlniu ogod thta v’uoye afr dsa)y ni wsa fo ot piyt oyu lldoewaw yrou adb it elfs ignog (wiht ehat,r teh rzidaeel. Keew nda oiggn aywa uor of gntteig htsi break be aehv mhitg ktnaig tond’ aubeecs no oehegtrt omrf lil’ yako a si oru rof i’m t’si ew os ’ertseh but ooshcl loev utb ?od ienxnttneso we isprgn iatkng feer oru to ot dna pga rwe’e oru u,p grluera ewtn me selcsas ecisn gocleel lcluatya of ogeclel eakrb aevh ! tbu la,escss okot feil we ruo ,slscaes for ucase lluf ovcid akebr go etyh stlli idpa. I’snt ni,ppatingoids eaieldrz nto gnoig tuhr dekenew mernoya !!! mane het ms’ tpu teitngg ew ot to eb mi’ wee’r reecipd etyh eerw woh htsi tteiggn owh :) utb i eoensmo uncgnoisf bsceeua she’ nda eth tey tub esno alst si us oottat enxevisep pyahp utb diareng ton it ’mi rvene amse and dveeres ym ed’nsto nsrope twih. S’he seeesvdr os at gf he sebeauc payhp b,ebas he dogo ti os tas’th tiwh now ypaph dna elsta ihs eessm. Ahtnk u ti oen lsao npagriy was s’it pes,hpsnia ti na btdhyria utb rfo swa :) grwionk ebne argte uor tsnnrgeetii ws,hesi rfo ekep the. Rhut yuo wnok dna ot ohhtutg to ruoye’ adn ysacr eapsle akdni 81 hte lcudo i raworfd taht so uhg nist’ ohw inap tpu hwtor egtnitg i as eb dan it dan wish re,om pkee fnu we it’s atuob pogzloaei :) unpgsih lrlyae si lal ughrtoh sa.
Tlils rof snpieap,sh gyanrpi rou m’i.
Lxe 3< ,oxxo.

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