A letter from Mar 09, 2025

Dear Future Saskia, (if you still go by that) Today is 09//03//2025, and it's 12:17 am. I'm currently listening to Baby Bugs as I write this. I'm 17 years, 9 months and 5 days old, as of right now. I'm planning to **** myself 854 days from now or July 8th, 2027 after I'm 20 years old. I plan on going down to the locks and jumping in, drowning myself. If I make it out alive, I'll dedicate my life to the Lord and if I don't, I hope He accepts me or that I'll go back to Andrew. I wonder if you, future me, still believe in fiction kinning Ashley or maybe, you have a life by now. Do you still get dreams about the future? I wonder if you remember that this moment was once foretold in a dream. I wonder how much of your life has changed; do you still write in that diary? do you have a girlfriend? boyfriend? Or are you sticking to Andrew cuz, you know as well as I do, because you're ME, that he'd hate it if you got a partner. Does he still live in your head? BE HONEST ARE YOU A **********?!?!?!?! I HAVE QUESTIONS OKOK; How is college? How is Bubbles? (perfect, I bet. I hope her birthday went well) Is Bubs still a fatcing? How is Oma? Did you get Lacey's book back from Judy? Do you go to Church still? Are you fluent in Dutch? Learning any other languages? How well do you and I match up? Name: Saskia Top kins: Ashley Graves, Harley Quinn, Clockwork // Natalie Oullette, Chica the Chicken Otherkin: Robot kin, Angel kin Interests: FNAF, TCOAAL, Lacey's Flash Games, Harley Quinn TV series, Young Sheldon, PMMM, NGE, MLP, Rick and Morty, probably more. Hobbies: Digital art, writing horror stories, listening to music Friends: Jubie, Lilah, and Bibble n some others ig Status: single Music: 1. Baby Bugs, Blood Girl, Flower Face & Ethel Cain 2. Hole, ***********, Kittie, Jack off Jill, Flyleaf and Lacey Sturm Random but what kinks do u have? I'm currently interested (this is gonna be so awful when u get this but U can blank it out when u show ppl) Knife play, blood, spanking, any form of abuse really. If u have a partner, do they engage with this stuff or are you too scared of intimacy cuz of mom sa'ing you? Have you become an alcoholic yet? done drugs? had ***? COMMITED A ******?!!!! or are you, normal? lol, I can't imagine you and me ever being normal or being happy with it if you are. What colour is your hair now? Mine is pink...ish. Are you happy? I doubt it, but I hope you're satisfied if you are Or did you go the other direction? Did you lose everyone? gave up pretending? Did anyone stay if you showed your true, disgusting self? If they did, keep them. If they didn't, **** em! Still live with Dad? If you somehow have ur own place by now, do you live on that floor mattress, starving and cutting yourself and never sleeping and always on the internet? I hope you love baby gir gir as much as I do now. Hope all is well, (or manageable at least) Love, 17 year old Saskia<3