A letter from Nov 16, 2024

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, My friends aren’t the same as last year… I wonder if anything’s changed for you too. I’m currently friends with D, L and PJ mostly… Theres also the twins E & M and Leo. Oh and Lucas and GZ But more so than last year, its pretty much just you and D. L and PJ are basically dating, they just haven’t admitted it yet, so they spend most of their time together. And I feel most of the gang is more friends with them than with us. I dunno. Do you still study at RC? It’s a lot, I know. Rich kids are so stupid (as if i’m poor haha) But it’s true. I’m not seen, and it’s partially my fault. I hope you’ve gotten better. And all that food stuff, huh? Still having some of those rules? Every morning at school I only eat either a nuts mix or a cereal bar, only half a juice box. Else I get sick. My brains just weird. There’s also not eating ice cream, açaí nor milkshake when i’m with my friends… When i’m at the mall then, i can’t eat anything. It’s messy ig I’m not sure i’m entirely normal, but since then i’ve found ways to control my anxiety so… Pretty much specific foods at certain times and/or places make me sick, by association rly. So I just stick to other foods. It’s simple! Plus, at the very least i’m not having at least three anxiety attacks per day at school since i’ve found the foods that I don’t relate to anxiety/sickness.. D said that we both should look for therapy, I agree, in a way. I undermine myself too much, alongside that food thing. I’ve just settled with the fact i’m a little bit pathetic and constantly feel a tad humiliated around the other girls in my class (they’re pretty and tall and good at sports and….) So is the life of a fourteen year old girl 🔥 (Well… fifteen, in your case)

Epilogue

28 days later

I don’t really know how to answer this, actually.

What i can say is that most of those rules aren’t necessary anymore. I’m not sure when it all stopped...

Tsi’ nhapeps i not eeavo…rt ret,atmgin ekli erve lot and ’otnd uasoxin efle a less i wnhe ti utb. .
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Twhi nwo ouy msea ieuqt sa asol wr’ee etanr’ wfhrnpds?ii-isee uoy nloy d nm and elwl! mhcu cnoe wath rdsfine pttrey hte ?ewre.
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Darwtu,lyo wee’r tohucy lveo epexrss a adn eliltt elyfe erom eyrv.
Os ttdasin knith eve’w i nebe tub rtthu ni ernve.
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Her i oevl dpe,ley.
Istll ro ewhn ew hte ssim ubt had i sles tessat asme remo. !hhaa sti’ eothr rspone si teh br wgnhaitc hwen ba asraku oen adn dacpar,cort hadr.
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Ou’rye lfee alntigk etsrenits yver ouy ko…wn of at aerb oodg it otn buaot owh and uyro ueasbce oyu kemas.
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Rayell ats’nh ncgedah chmu tshi. Tahts' ng,irty and iatonrmpt oer’uy swt’ah.
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Tbu ttha oyur is eascebu leef oedn-i,eds nfoet fo hnpdsifier yuo klie.
Nad laeesv htat uyo sretatfrdu iertd.
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Nm ear ,pj e enxt dan gvaelin eay…r.
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!() l jp hiwt so ry’eou tno atgidn ’ehs esuaebc ialc)oflfiy w(on scleo.
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Ilwl nm e eb but eepyld m,siesd adn.
’lwel lstli ouhght bbplaory lkta. Nnalua ihnt,g my chcek amke …)we?nt (lyuacal,t an woh isht dpecrsnioti tmghi i.
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Mchu poeple rehest and yerv eeftfnidr euroy wthi eoryu’ otn mteh irfesnd …lr.
…os eh’rtye hiwt utb l sfinerd.
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Dsasep i hsit are,y erabyl.
It! btu i amed.
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I year ta shit ,ohcols rmoe rgdelgtsu.
Rome ufn a lot tbu aws it.
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Dha hwit haronte iv’e iloinrg,e fllaing tuo.
Ist’ tno elnedtfiyi idtvinefie ougthh.
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Si ky ***** iulgt a.
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’im ,ppyha.
Ahtn u?yo ambye mreo.
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Stlo of ,vole.
Uo!y.

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