A letter from Nov 16, 2024

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, My friends aren’t the same as last year… I wonder if anything’s changed for you too. I’m currently friends with D, L and PJ mostly… Theres also the twins E & M and Leo. Oh and Lucas and GZ But more so than last year, its pretty much just you and D. L and PJ are basically dating, they just haven’t admitted it yet, so they spend most of their time together. And I feel most of the gang is more friends with them than with us. I dunno. Do you still study at RC? It’s a lot, I know. Rich kids are so stupid (as if i’m poor haha) But it’s true. I’m not seen, and it’s partially my fault. I hope you’ve gotten better. And all that food stuff, huh? Still having some of those rules? Every morning at school I only eat either a nuts mix or a cereal bar, only half a juice box. Else I get sick. My brains just weird. There’s also not eating ice cream, açaí nor milkshake when i’m with my friends… When i’m at the mall then, i can’t eat anything. It’s messy ig I’m not sure i’m entirely normal, but since then i’ve found ways to control my anxiety so… Pretty much specific foods at certain times and/or places make me sick, by association rly. So I just stick to other foods. It’s simple! Plus, at the very least i’m not having at least three anxiety attacks per day at school since i’ve found the foods that I don’t relate to anxiety/sickness.. D said that we both should look for therapy, I agree, in a way. I undermine myself too much, alongside that food thing. I’ve just settled with the fact i’m a little bit pathetic and constantly feel a tad humiliated around the other girls in my class (they’re pretty and tall and good at sports and….) So is the life of a fourteen year old girl 🔥 (Well… fifteen, in your case)

Epilogue

28 days later

I don’t really know how to answer this, actually.

What i can say is that most of those rules aren’t necessary anymore. I’m not sure when it all stopped...

Onuaixs not but hespnpa a and ssle lto ti …raoetve nehw ’its i emgrtan,ti reve i feel elki ’tdno. .
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Efndisr atne’r now tqiue ?rpsshifiein-wde d r?wee sa nm wee’r nda lelw! ecno uyo you atwh hmcu het aslo saem ryttpe noly thiw.
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Efyle omer atyolwd,ru rsxsepe ew’re a evol titlel adn vrey yhoctu.
In so thrut tnihk enbe btu e’vwe rvnee tnsitad i.
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Eepyd,l i vleo rhe.
Adh i or ubt seatst we ames teh tslil ssel sims nwhe mreo. T’is is prcadtroac, ba chitgwan hte h!aah sepnro br suakar ohert eno dan dhar nwhe.
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Ouyr bera ont elfe at yver ye’oru good lkngtia netstiesr casebeu on…wk fo ouy uoy ti utoab owh and emask.
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Hegnadc alryle san’ht sthi mhuc. Igtyn,r r’uoye s’htwa atonirpmt t'shta nda.
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Saeeucb si hatt dfhiinespr uyo but eonft uryo eefl of like edein,s-do.
Eealvs yuo irdte frrtustaed dan ttha.
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Nda nm exnt e ya…re ,jp eavlign ear.
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E’sh otn l leosc iandtg jp cubaees )iafciyfllo os on(w twhi ureoy’ !().
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Mds,esi lliw nm tub nda be e eylped.
Lorabybp uhogth ’wlel aktl isllt. Tish might ekma an ohw tghni, cchke nanlua ualc(yat,l …)?wten ym i ntpiirdsoce.
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Umch nto etmh pelpeo lr… whit sethre nerfids adn eryv irefdtnef ourey’ rouye.
Ty’here s…o l sfiednr ubt htiw.
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I esapds bylaer iths raye,.
!it emda tbu i.
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Ta sthi clsoh,o i eorm ldrusgtge eray.
Remo ti lot tub ufn a asw.
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Dha whit vei’ tuo oiegi,nlr lngfial tarehno.
Hghuto ont ’its eiydlftine netdifviie.
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Ky is ***** a ilgtu.
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Mi’ hayp,p.
Moer htna mbyea oy?u.
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Of elov, tslo.
Yo!u.

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