Can I forgive him now

can I forgive him now that he is truly gone don't owe me a thing whatever he promised was needed no more oh the roof and the water ressess and the mess that he made maybe it was never the one to sort out for him? can I forgive him now that I said what I said all the violent words and more violent thoughts swirling in my head they made it to paper emails, songs messages of some kind prayers that I used to focus on when I was lonely at night now that he is gone dead in the water and nothing left of the old me can I forgive him now and be free