A letter from Nov 25, 2023

Dear Arlo Isaac Linnard, It's funny how things change so quickly. Last year I was worrying about ODEs, placements, top surgery, and now all those problems are just distant memories. I failed 3 exams and passed resits all in just the one year since last year's letter. I've got new, unsolved problems as well that hopefully you can provide insight on. My current conundrum is comic con, but that'll be over in just over a week, so I'm not going to waste your time with that, I'll handle that one myself. I could say that's my biggest issue but we'd both know I'm lying, I just hope you're better than I currently am. My cosplay has provided a fantastic distraction, I'm always so busy I can't afford to think about anything else which suits me just fine. I don't know how to feel, I broke down when I went to Babina's house (yeah that's another problem that last year wasn't even of concern, least not to me) and outside of that fairly understandable reaction (thank you Yoshi for helping there), stupid stuff like height and **** jokes are just grating to me. I hate that I fix something and then my brain just moves onto the next problem, but we're onto unsolvable problems. I will never grow, and I don't have 30k. And then there's the even more stupid stuff like shoulder width, thighs and hips it's pathetic. And outside of dysphoria, feeling lonely, treating your friends like gods and still being treated like ****, is it so hard to find someone who would actually love me and not just ditch me at the first opportunity and try to place the blame on me? Chris did a good job of calming me down and Yoshi's pulled through but that doesn't change anything, until I hear an apology I'm standing my ground on that front. There's more I could write about, 'tism, wanting to purposefully hurt myself by going to rubix, but this is just becoming a depressing letter. I guess it'll make you feel good in a "look how far we came" way. I'm technically 16 months on T, but realistically it's more like 9 months since I switched to nebido. My voice has dropped, I've got a beard, and I did get my top surgery with Vahidi, as far as last year me would think I'm complete and perfect, which is fair it has solved a lot of issues. I'm no longer touch-averse, I love sharing a bed with Yoshi, being close to someone, touching skin-to-skin (not in a ****** way), it's brilliant. And I feel more, which is probably why I have the aforementioned mental issues, I'm less robotic. My hairstyle's a lot better as well which is the cherry on top. My placement's been going well, probably because it's piss easy. The reports are easy, and well that's it, it's just reports. And I get to do them in advance and sleep in if I so choose so that's quite the luxury. You still doing that? Least the Monday reports? You got a QPR yet? Please say yes. Also any plans for karaoke dances? I mean Cliff'll be in England after all. The splatoon one was fun, would be cool to do again, with Yoshi as well if he's able. Let me know how it all goes, but I'm in a pretty comfortable place right now so no rush. Best regards, Revali Cosplayer