A letter from Oct 2nd, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I am so proud of you at how far you have come in the last 10 years. From where you were at the age of 20. Having a baby, in an unhealthy relationship that was abusive, to unable to finish school because your priorities weren’t straight like you thought. To a lot of partying and living. You made a lot of great memories but hid a lot of pain. Right before turning 30 you wanted a healthier version of you. You took your mental health serious and put in work for yourself. Continuous therapy, dealing with your depression/anxiety, letting go of friendships & relationships that are not serving you. Creating an atmosphere that is healthy for you and your babies. Being more present for your babies. For your 30’s you have set the Intentions of peace, love, and happiness. To be a better version of yourself. You have left a relationship, which has been painful, but to make the Intensions you set for yourself to be true. You have realized life is too short to be Unhappy. & all through your 20’s you were Unhappy. The best version and happiest version of yourself will reflect in your boys. They too will be the best versions of themselves. I hope you have kept your goals in vision and keep knocking each one off of your list. Because you are capable of anything you set your mind too. You are strong, resilient, admirable, a leader, a loving mother, and a wonderful friend. Hold on to the people who fill up your cup when needed and don’t forget to keep filling theirs up as well. 💜 Love always, Me. You have grown so much from 20 until 30. Keep growing & glowing!

Epilogue

over 3 years later

Dear Me,

I need you to pause for a moment and really take in how far you’ve come because I know you don’t give yourself enough credit.

Life didn’t get...

Dpeho lduwo oecn sereia klie it igmyalalc ouy. Mnya y,wsa fcta, aieerhv ti ni got in. Olmotnaie aklt kdin oue’yv fo dna eth otu kes,bsatc nt’od lepoep that whigte dulo toms rcadier eabrr,khaet botau nuni,osocf. Eerh eyt aer itlsl yuo nad. Rignyt sillt. Sllti usrth hgioonsc tr,eebt ewnh ti eenv.
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Trbgouh ouy in five shti otnarhe drwol satp resa,y inot btlefuuai the lief. Now eorthm a erteh uyo of aer. Adn neagudic oklo erteh ,love hnuams iltlet hwo to fy,tsae ouy rfo. Uyo are yd,sa leef you gnigvi owh ouy omer elzarei mthe hnta esmo pdsetie.
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Dedratuga eirldicneb oyu idd uyo gtnisoemh -. Awth ni sbipeiomls ishedfni you 50,22 eftl ceon. Had in to of of yvrenhtegi ptos uowld taht eb og?a soirnve how ehs uoy won uoy ewa rayes.
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Tiloiarshpne vene valee eneb a tath adn ocehic eamd rehta teh kacb oyu dna aniag houtgh ahs edulpl tsdete has ,epedly ni rhfto to you uory. Tsan’w that a ssnekwae. Was htta a trhnetgs. Tath asw rwgtoh. That tncaienur left was wnhe yigitrenfr ti dna yuo scoihngo fys,elrou veen.
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Nwo i lfee hrigt stlo uoy onwk.
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Kdis etsb inwgohs senirov elki soeryflu het uoy sa y,veah ont elfe orf yruo nkow and i pu of yreo’u leoa,dits. Onwk lefe you pu nad tath sihw dlcou ouy and hpaepn i sujt culdo ewak refe ,yhapp ogtevhrin- naehilg whleo,.
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Utb not ohw rwosk a’tsth hits. ’eotdns erouy’ fngliia ttha nda aenm.
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At nto yuo ruaqse neo cabk rae.
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Wno owh stolo are oeomnse you sah. Aeawsnres. Exreneiecp. Bnidoaersu. Nyr,eoma enev won oyp—sudt if ruyo uroy hemt oyur oudl yb blinldy intayxe, tgirh predseins,o oyru thye iaang oeegzricn eignb efel uyo are lrlooctnde odc, ont.
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Lgnheai nto a si ihtgarst ienl. Messy i’st. Ti opslo. It sseaup. Ti ttssaerr. But it u’voye uyo leik eefsl gnhvereiyt, duneno nda anhetv’ ememssiot.
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Llsit yuo aer hatt ortew ceon maonw outab tsnieiler uoy tso,rng.
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Rmoe uorye’ alutaly,c wno htat htna.
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Kwon atwh uyo ceueasb it flal elik eekp ot nwo gingo aaptr adn leesf slilt.
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Rhtt,u rouy iefl a aivuvlrs irdnigbule cpael fo mrfo uyo ont aer.
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Oyu ryou emit ekat eolawdl ear ot.
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Ot aems lfee oepulhf eth dalolwe sad ta etmi nad rae yuo.
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Ont eowladl uifrdeg to tou rae tye evah oyu ti lla.
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T:shi htaw etamtsr is.
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Uyo nrtygi are.
Hnocigos era oyu terebt.
Rea eerh yuo iltls.
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Of honmtsige si and uprod atth be to.
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Fo ndee a isdk nveriso ’tond yruo ouy ptceefr.
Lear a one ehyt ende.
A eno glhaien.
A eon igogrwn.
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Who is rae and lxtcaye yuo ahtt.
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Epek ggnoi.
On even syad tqeui eth.
Eevn yheva no ydas eht.
Pgsrerso efle eryuo’ ouy ingkma eikl nehw ont vene.
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Are scaebeu ouy.
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Seluyfor rdipe ouy tish ta cuhm in lfee adv—onre dan eno nokuw,nn ookl dya, so arsntgit llwi ngtiits fo ht-e back iwll oimpsnosac rnveios ouy eht one.
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Not stlo rae you.
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Dleidm eht of yuo aer in nimcogeb.
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Ovl,e wthi.
💜 em.

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