A letter from Oct 2nd, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I am so proud of you at how far you have come in the last 10 years. From where you were at the age of 20. Having a baby, in an unhealthy relationship that was abusive, to unable to finish school because your priorities weren’t straight like you thought. To a lot of partying and living. You made a lot of great memories but hid a lot of pain. Right before turning 30 you wanted a healthier version of you. You took your mental health serious and put in work for yourself. Continuous therapy, dealing with your depression/anxiety, letting go of friendships & relationships that are not serving you. Creating an atmosphere that is healthy for you and your babies. Being more present for your babies. For your 30’s you have set the Intentions of peace, love, and happiness. To be a better version of yourself. You have left a relationship, which has been painful, but to make the Intensions you set for yourself to be true. You have realized life is too short to be Unhappy. & all through your 20’s you were Unhappy. The best version and happiest version of yourself will reflect in your boys. They too will be the best versions of themselves. I hope you have kept your goals in vision and keep knocking each one off of your list. Because you are capable of anything you set your mind too. You are strong, resilient, admirable, a leader, a loving mother, and a wonderful friend. Hold on to the people who fill up your cup when needed and don’t forget to keep filling theirs up as well. 💜 Love always, Me. You have grown so much from 20 until 30. Keep growing & glowing!

Epilogue

over 3 years later

Dear Me,

I need you to pause for a moment and really take in how far you’ve come because I know you don’t give yourself enough credit.

Life didn’t get...

It ikle noec odphe odwul reseia yuo llamyigac. Ni nyma t,afc ehrieva in ws,ay it tgo. Osmt ’vueyo nikd ekearh,arbt tou plpeoe etlinoaom fo hatt htegwi and hte atlk stae,skbc dlou insc,oounf craerdi d’ont tboau. Siltl oyu nad ety ear eerh. Rtygni sllti. T,eebrt lsilt ti when neve hurts hscoiong.
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Iotn you es,yar sith het roetanh ni ifel bautliufe stpa orldw fvie htourgb. Era now of emtorh a heret uoy. Eetrh tlteli adn who ystfa,e ,olve ot ofr nhsuam ouy udicgnae kool. Gvnigi eelf how ehmt ouy uoy smoe rae yuo rmoe ,asyd naht tpseide zeerila.
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Grddtaeua you ibcnediler - uoy did igeotnmhs. Lfet ni pileobsims tawh hsenidif uyo ocne 5,022. ?gao woh ouy ryesa eonrsiv of hes ot in be ttha uoy fo aew dulwo tpso had rvighyeetn wno.
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Lpldue ouy ahs uyo rtofh uhothg uyor veeal atht to bcka neve nda setetd eneb in ahs oiehcc eth dna meda eledpy, erapiniltohs retha agian a. A tath sanwkees ’nawts. A sgrhtetn aws taht. Swa atth wohrtg. Enve ouy hoignsoc flte eatncriun it dan hewn atht rrgnityefi ysler,fuo saw.
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Oslt i leef ghtri nwo ownk uoy.
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Dna of ielk hte tno steb yuo’re ouy rof atsoedli, ev,hay hwigson oryu wkon eoinrvs eefl i soleyufr sa kdsi up. Atth yuo lfee whl,oe hsiw anephp yuo adn dolcu pu tsuj nda nwko efre kwea i hpya,p duocl lengiha rhgnot-iev.
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’attsh kowsr otn tihs utb how. Ondtes’ anfgili dna thta nema ryueo’.
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Aer yuo ruqaes ta neo ont back.
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Hwo meoeosn olsto ahs uoy nwo aer. Rssaawnee. Eexecrinpe. Naibserdou. Dulo efel ont yb peer,odssin rae yuor wno uotsd—py nbieg enve yeht oryu royu yoru htme inrzceoge tnaeyxi, lernocdolt dlnibly dco, nagia tighr if oenm,ary uyo.
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A si tisatrhg otn einl halngei. ’sit eymss. Ti loosp. Ti useasp. It tastrser. Btu u’ovye eefsl yuo tygi,vneerh ti tneha’v and kile ndenuo itmseomes.
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Oewrt tbaou rlsiieent oecn sllit t,rgnos mwaon ouy oyu era that.
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Hatt cyullata, rome own nhta r’ouey.
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Wnok lkei to wno slefe litsl epek oyu thwa it sbaceeu flla dna tarap onigg.
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File plcae alrvsuiv riblndegiu uyo yruo not rfmo era htut,r fo a.
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Rae eadlwol ot ouy atke uroy tiem.
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To ta fele mtie adn seam dsa oflehpu ledwalo teh rae yuo.
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Out to tye ti uoy are tno igefdru lla vhea oldwela.
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Is iths: waht tmrsaet.
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Ear tnriyg uoy.
Are hcoigson beettr uoy.
Uyo tills erhe ear.
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Dan genmiosth pudro of si taht to eb.
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Refpect deen fo a skdi you to’nd srnievo yuro.
Rlae tyhe neo a ened.
A oen angheli.
Gwiongr a neo.
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Ohw yclxaet nda aer is atth ouy.
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Eepk ngogi.
No tquie vnee sayd teh.
Neev adsy heayv on teh.
Ewnh you ekli ngamik evne roregssp eyru’o feel ton.
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Bseaceu ear you.
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Hsit ni dna onisevr het noe isngtart lwil oyu nnkwn,ou lilw ta irdep yuo look fo nmisasopoc hte- so hcum sgintit ve—ronad ,ady bcak lfee erloufsy noe.
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Uyo nto ear lsot.
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Yuo ear noceigbm hte lmddie ni of.
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Ihwt ov,le.
Em 💜.

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