A letter from July 30th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How you doin!? well,the present me is all messy,unwanted and irritated I`m 16 and a month old now. You know how hard teen years can be , I hope you are okay cause right now Im not .Everyone is all judgy about all my decisions including my school and the course Im in.they made me doubt myself just cause i took commerce.ah!screw them. My friends too arent even trying to help me cope up with my lonliness.They are adding to the misery.My whole life is now a big WTF? Anyway if you are reading this STAY STRONG LOVE. Do not give up easily cause that is what I often do and I regret it a lot. I hope you are surrounded by positive people who might as well give you the importance you give to them;if not its ok .You dont always get what you want and in my case I never get what I want [Im hell of a Pessimist]. As per my plan you should now be in abroad studying Law and also have your own dancing blog [II think of me as becoming an incredible dancer] .I hope you are on the right path. You possibly remember your breakup with your bestfriend like that **** hurts like hell more than my love breakup.well I think about her every now and then.I know Im stupid.who`s your BFF now? lemme take a guess.A boy who wears glass and is the most handsome around.Hope Im right.[these are defo not my preferences ,its a wild guess I promise.] For the brighter side of life,Im still alive battling through a Pandemic. I will give my best to stay the same so that you can read this and idk get a motivation about how life is always a huge disaster and its not your fault . Let me give you some advice.Stay away from stupidity.Friends arent always there for you[sooner you realize the better ].Also not everyone you think is your friend.Dont let people take you for granted.LOVE YOURSELF.Things are gonna get better,believe me the thing you are worrying about right now and crying about it every night isnt even going to stay in your memories the after two years.You might even laugh about how silly you were.Time heals everything,EVERYTHING.Focus on your skin health ,Dont make me look older than I actually am.Lastly when you feel low, have some coffee and watch FRIENDS or Brooklyn 99.I bet youll laugh your heart out forgetting all the ****** things happening then.When nothing goes well in life,take a nap. CURRENTLY MY FAVORITE SONG IS EASTSIDE BY HALSLEY AND NIGHT CHANGES BY ONE DIECTION[HAVE YOU BOUGHT A TICKET FOR THE CONCERT YET?] Hope mom is happy and in great health.Keep her happy ,she is really counting on you.Dont let her down.Serve her right after all the sacrifices she has done for the sake of you JUST YOU and no one else. LOADS OF LOVE ,STAY SAFE AND STRONG.THE WAIT IS WORTH IT. LOVINGLY YOURS LAKSHMI

Epilogue

almost 3 years later

hii my very pessimistic self Lakshmi Aradhana

I am doing wonders after 6 years, I did get into an amazing college and the one you always wanted ya NLSIU Bengaluru....

Ym ednioisc smdeua enitsl ndahceg oisrtes rellay tboau efil ad da to lla be ahtt ot ylolu' one nvryetighe. Vaeh ni frsined i irhtg siwe vyer eenb dnorau adn zimagna klcyu i dan i eth haev thgri popele em ecapl wsa meti hwosome. Adn tppdose ti wsa toh nhgit ot iklvamaa ache olhwe htero a i kgniatl. I gnstro oseg siad lislt ma elif styagni lkie yuo no. Mfro am nieachn irtnhnispe pg fo fiagrle dysa nad be ydas reyv in ipekspd depior a doanru wot ouy i ucase i ingwtir ot. Hawt od wtsan ekta em trse nda to gdo eat siht ohecaolct si. Last os ,hmcu evdlo mhi his a rof ayers eihkswrs owt ho uoy i nowd atc ot dah. Sism mhi so i again illst eh eoph ,hcum dnfis i em. Ayw we ehnt of ecyhrr erh dan giyntas idse ew tmreho os akbc os aaign td'oulnw dnehppae nwo eht btu reew nad lafiym twih meohtr cfat rea unf da lal rthee i on smbia loev it etisrs tafs gtth?i thsi etmh so teb it hucm eikl hatse. And silke crrhye we woh eusca orebrht amisb tahts emt dgos. Ahst'n sthmno tow agetr bisam waay eben aesspd oga. Is eh allc kbac og oh wen si sihunt so 'im eh kuciq a ppu my mhi eh rlea ogt rteytp indejur 'lelh sr'teeh itrsephinn tredopae bnuoce faetr ongan thlysgli i ab,by os adn meet fun hmi tpsidu shti. ,rlueoyfs i rfo btu ,efil all eth dsoe omfr dtipus orf kiel oecientxp rh,ats heerw usges nlyo vlie i uoy ehva rae ,sgeo hvae aer siht iekl nme yeakaawt on the see oaudnr ewomn e'hsert to,u to da gienveyrth nme wrko you iefl. Ot vhea want afm be eagtr lal inetuosq eirth ykoa aenwrs nmweo iesprahtt ohw so **** drfnei eirhet rea fnseird whti mpn,oacosin gn sebt kiel i non or uroy ygu oyu gea?lsss amel ot im is my. Ehva dna i do alme ronlma iefrsdn era *** woh. Okwn to owh sr'eteh soal naiag orf cesdar user trsnu im os ruoy o,hnmt ees il'l rltete ctnueermitr ta ti ntex nad ot,u out till' ll'i nad cdxiete kool owkr. At vieg ullhpofye heva tno erlrga up the i rutpeic nda ot olko acger eht ynintstla. Ad buy i no ym fun enunroi arm d1 og rsi ddi a yb sngo olduw si ofr ehva thto yalpbrob in ew i stih hakedatlna 0220 nda da who dna v no lteugu a amf ot gons rrbm occntre nr ronccet utb tfirvaoe itcekt tno iwll i. Ehtm own nda byclaon the teehr 4 idde anepy mlai ihs off fo :(( aer jsut d'edo eohtl. Kcpi iraf btu si w ?ysse?tl ,nam gtroihwn os a nsneycasrue ichhw eshad atth eugrt)lgs your ?si??ht heatfr esh' keli ffo iigg alos awth erobk vnree a kseep oyu dtragehu htats i znya yrarh keil uyo iam ldeki hd(a now dah alrlye a snsoare ta. A ecr,era emro *e*-r* dcios thwi eovl wen tiocs cpehar i lsitl yharr ntyrceel lal lsyste nda ikss inoyloccasla gikn sh'e edlseera etgont cumis da shi ie,tm mubla. Olt a veaidah hsrbai unf skgsnii i ebne vaeh. Ton hte are atnw i ont puursist ta ym ni nda do out reioswr mi i to bjo why do sillt ntmmoe bigstge od kwro then hsnigt ad ttelsaa nigurfig e,ofcfis hgu ym tmaicnro liek i etseh. Kooilgn ghrti od of aubto im aaidevh oyu hawt nto ton i ot still me wtohr ratp ta gipnneord rcasev emn know ivanaublale sti utb it **** oyu icgnyr and. Etmi ielf hrmtoe on het tub husc vsreen si ym lal gset ,neif si. Yka eyb. Lyk hlasl nfu have i nad.

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