A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

Na want atpedu. . . I uree,q scfcpiie m,a eedidn, ot sxlnauape eb. Ot nda naionybnr 5 ro hhogut as onrtahe eufirg ookt ohsmnt 4 atht ,ewll otu. Have rof nad a tath nnerudemebuc hte i usoronpn ctaula nwe lgntsie wne gvie e,sfrh egnder em adn opurehia a o,nw naem tisrf etmi o,en.
.
Eth mmeusr wsa. . . Dna allf oot aws nlg,o hte. Hent ot unrret to iemt twinre, mace ym rof teh dan rpaestn adn ivel with. . . It'ndd i. Ltef a nda of nteh i nde snacnott et,hm lieref, hmet a rfom keew hrus no eitrh cslal adn uto iftcrna acnpi fo ot caem. Ntdniednrasgiums xcepet adn epde and lsrfeua e,dpe me to. Rmbemse to wiht tonhms ponmcy,a s,o nsitaed ,erteh uondf tdidn' ylfaim urntre suktc sndep with tiehr moes i ot nda tgffcaonius evli. Dna 'tsi bene levoyl.
.
Gshnit have uoy yma rthoe epxtdece vhea secylret ,oot sa ehcdgan. Ntacrihis is idm,n) otesffr mi' i ton in do npsarte uyor oyrmean a my ogs'd thwa ihcwh dsearht apiepcaret uohgh(t fro wseet patr olev a swa ym epke iicntsahr fo to. And hvae arpheip lilst ueds than ohw eardsentg nwhe nya hthyougrlo ilhwe thaw amyn adn ebne acs,e rmof )yppah nifd adn i ,eb i nto 'mi i in veer ahtt aveh thnigs iehfs,td yslfme, to vene( eelevddpo,.
.
Orf 'mi yswa ni hte oulehfp omse utuf,er. Dan ciiisemsspt hte suonixa dan pheo owelh osla fo sa a tbuoa lnpaet eth. Fgesrin srde,cos ir?tgh.
.
Vtoladiina ol,ev bakc to gdnneis nda o,uy ym arde ,cnaateecpc.

This user has written an update to this letter.To see what they wrote, please

Write new comment

Load more comments