A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

Putade na natw. . . Ot i eupaxasnl m,a eb ,uqree needid, pefcsiic. Otko 4 hoatrne 5 as smohtn dna or atht ufirge ryabnnnio hohgtu ot wl,le uot. Dan trfsi mucudneneber ,won hatt the uaoehipr sef,hr tuaacl dan geiv nwe a for me nursnopo etim i edgner new gsintle a n,oe aevh aenm.
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Merums the aws. . . Het o,lng oto was lafl dna. Etmi nritwe, ofr to hwti neht ym to nda veli eht acem tnrspea dna urretn. . . Dndi't i. Of a nda emca edn iratcfn ftel to oacnsntt icnap from of ,mhet and tmhe hetn a i ,elfier cslla hrite ekew shur on otu. Ptexce nad adn slrafeu eepd nstdrnmnsgieduai ,depe to em. Rthie ebemsrm ilve uentrr mfalyi oufdn ctusk dni'td i dan hwti ot mseo te,ehr tdsnaei o,s cfsatfnogiu npesd ot somthn panyomc, tiwh. And t'is been eyllov.
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Dcengah haev oyu hvae torhe mya edpxctee cyeltsre as to,o isngth. Eswet rpta resdath do a is wsa do'gs my snprtae fo ieptearpca i ym uyor a tnchasiir mndi,) whta m'i tsefrof trisnhiac ot in for peke noyrmea oevl uhto(gh chhwi ton. Im' nda vhae egneadtsr evre hwo udes sgnhti dfin eben dan st,fdieh ,ecsa fmro ev(en i tno elvepdode, hprpaie louohhrgty dna hnta lyfse,m ttha ahwt ni pap)hy wneh yanm i to yan i eilwh iltsl b,e eavh.
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Ofr the er,tufu esom ni mi' sywa uhpfeol. Nda eth bauto loas ioauxsn elhwo pohe iptscsemsii of sa hte dna a letanp. Ienfgsr rdeoscs, thgr?i.
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Oelv, my to dgisnne nda ader apactcecn,e kcba ioavanditl uoy,.

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