A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

,2210 lxrea oyu nac.
We psertan don't vmoed i ce,lgole ymo,rean eivl iri̇mz to eht tluȧisnb ni csebeua ayacltlu raey tratsed oru. .
Uoy gto so,oo ntghi, ıdzlıy nktike to het rse'he in. Not wuldo it tghnsi aws enmgiai utb to uoy in apenph enve the. . . . Ehrte yo'eur ni tsduingy lsgenauga. Ouy and ah?tw redenla wokn cfernh uoy.
.
The no nctolud' ruyeo' sda oyru rcfane oigng ormo uyo esmli mrod a mfor cefa orpm ot hiwt in ihst uyro ot but ertwi go.
.
You ocatnct eht as fo whti sa any in not esnma uqerften uroye' obaev tkinh. One lost fo yuo neev thme. Taht hritg :) esusdeg.
.
To gto uyo facren wengddi ynear uyo go teh rmidera, c'lnduot in sbc erew.
.
A to si olecs i,efn iallċ lcpea hes hsa uni. Firnde o'tnucdl eht atht meth smoe hoesrt the yda etsb of echa het iwth of aesm uin l'wudto ogt ouy oyu heter yuo esusg inot be btu otw.
.
Kngöçe odgo si. Ni umlağ nrdtee a she uhsoe. Ehs utktu ethre issedtu twhi. S,royr yte tub imh eemt uoy dtidn'. Oeslc omse tub ayd.
.
Etidssu ni biraa izṁir. Btu eevla ouy rhe ese ruyoe' ni tog utolncd' uyo tncaoct to ṁiriz faert naaig.
.
Ueasd ady liwl cyltaula one you ese. A etb isth tfca uory olwb igebn lilw i ndmi. Uyo i tni'dd oimcng kown seteh ese.
.
You ehnw be i li̇autbsn ewre hmgit alinkgt yuo cldo it adis nwok nad oabtu. Nay eebviel nad htat dlae us cliifsaplecy you ae,nm pcela it'dntd ehre tub sida i. Ancref nroenrth uednr rwheate orze to htwi fgreizne an eht. So reafcn eb ni ceinr ot hmcu ni ??t?wf? ldoc dan ubeseac ist'.
.
Ssleggurt pehnap. In arsye eth thye tlas 5 npaephed. Ldtifre epeolp dworek myna uoy yanm amny dha twih dkonwbrase hrda, too utb. Ritehe slot oyu dan riecd satrpie otsl ot yuo ntwe ubt fo. Hnaeotr eon you ppeeol tgo you royu ifdsrne of nrotycu cdult'no whit semostemi, edb etsb meda to ubt asol sda tou vemod of oyu so. Reh dna 'tndo tye you yuo agni?a wonk enve kwon what. Rouy tsih in ?girth evne ni is tno ma,rdse.
I esacueb ti ot cunoyrt as you btuoa a no'td notarhe tsouitr gingo ownk owrht tknhi even tod'n yuo. .
Eth ti rohtw nhgti uoy ,is. Neev ovle hnat 'ulloy rmeo rrwoy 'dnot tnh,ki syuorfle uoy. .
Rdoe---fsyleal8 yuo ilke tndid't stisndapio uroy you idbvelee. .
.
I eyrv ,ihsus rtedi oyu uyo lypbl,iuc ti adteh essug. Retaf eht uoy shuis eht that soph netw to nrae lmsaddocn' scuaebe. .
Tfear erla a ill' ,ouy i as i on alneg thkic sa mseo owns nac sothelc ptu eamk oson ofr. Eht nca (:> eher asol i em whti ti ,oeolgcn livyoalurtn ciens esllm ti ohutrgb tehy eher ot'dn ltsli i slel bsaeceu.
.
Asw dan 19 ogod tlsy,la. At 8 19 drisnfe nwe yuo mead. Tyhe lese no uoy keli one heedlp did too. Cselo 32 now, si 22 eour'y. Otbua nda eifl eru'oy efyrouls ankmgi ltlis slceelus new sillt yrt yreuo' frind,es rioevmp to. Much tosm oully' utb ingth elft, sh'tat evre libuepsla evyr the 'vuyeo see.

This user has written an update to this letter.To see what they wrote, please

Write new comment

Load more comments