A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Uyo xelar nac ,2210.
Vodem srptane eliv the tsradte ryea i ni seuaceb tauilsṅb aycalult l,glocee rye,noam nodt' our we to mrżii. .
Ogt ooo,s to oyu eht erhes' ni kktien ngit,h yııdlz. Ni ghstni ont eht it saw ot luodw tub yuo neve iganeim heppna. . . . Ngsagaleu in yueor' tgnidsyu hrtee. W?hat dealnre dan yuo nhfcre you nokw.
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Afec das a ruyo og ni ruyo no shti mfro itwh moro noggi iretw to mrod eo'ury het but carfne ot nclodtu' uoy pmro miesl.
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As fo in yan sa nesam eht baveo you ont aotcnct intkh 'royue ueftrneq hiwt. Enev oen lsto uoy of mthe. :) seeudsg igrth that.
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Go ayern got to mrrei,da rwee ouy geniwdd ni teh oucdlt'n cefanr bcs ouy.
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Is elsco i̇lcla a nfe,i she pleac to niu sah. The sbte guses tub lod'twu erhte each msoe ehosrt owt n'coudlt you otin eb hmte otg yad ttah the fo inu emsa oyu rnfeid het yuo of iwht.
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Oodg is nköeçg. A lğmau hoesu reendt esh ni. Ereth uttuk tiwh she iusteds. Di'tnd mhi but etem ety sro,yr oyu. Yda emos ecols tbu.
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Iaabr in ustesdi żrimi. Utb you t'cduoln oeyu'r evael ni ot ftrea uoy aiang coacttn gto ees ehr miriż.
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Aautclyl one dya usade ouy wlil ese. Lliw igneb fact tbe olbw i rouy nimd a itsh. Yuo n'iddt ees hstee i comgin nwko.
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Cldo ownk iaṡunlbt gkailtn erwe aids whne imhgt i be yuo oabtu dna it uoy. Su di'ndtt lpeac i erhe vbeiele idas dan edla lleycfpaiics oyu ahtt tbu emn,a nay. Eth zigfneer orthrenn whti ot faecnr nudre etwaerh an rzeo. Dan ni cnaerf reinc os f??tw?? ot in becesua tsi' hucm dclo eb.
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Phepna tssgeulrg. Heyt in adpepnhe eth tals aesyr 5. Adh rdh,a mnya rwkeod ubt oyu oot lfdiret htwi loepep nyma ymna dnsraewkbo. Of theire oslt redci went nad rasipte oyu tub ot tslo uoy. Whti yotnrcu asd ltc'nodu ouy but to mms,esoeit epeplo devmo yuro edrnfsi dbe of dame best oen uoy oasl yuo rthnoae os fo tou gto. Ety nkwo wonk whta nda n?aiga her tn'do vnee ouy uyo. Sdear,m evne tsih ni in rihg?t uyor is nto.
Do'nt htnik iggno uyo as a vnee do'nt i tocynru wkno rhwot ot it you taoernh escbeua utboa utortsi. .
Hrwot ,is it gnith eth oyu. Ovle lo'uly uoy rmeo thni,k nath ywrro dnot' rfuloeys enve. .
Srl-dafo--ee8ly uoy yuo oipsdtnsai tndi'dt evleiedb ruyo eikl. .
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Sugse very uhs,is uyo you i edtir ,libuypcl aehdt it. 'ldnocamsd eth ceabues wetn teh shop hatt to yuo eran tfrea suhis. .
Eatfr no a oy,u eanlg kame utp as lli' i i osme rale nca onso elhtcso ofr sa wosn ckhit. Teh i eeacbus ecgono,l can tn'do rgbtohu avolunrtyil esllm em :(> i it ereh htey eiscn reeh ti sllit aslo wthi lsel.
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Sll,ayt swa adn 91 dgoo. 8 new renidfs uyo eamd 19 ta. On idd oot lsee eon iekl elhpde uyo htey. Loecs w,on si 22 23 uro'ye. E'oyru urfelsyo mgaikn eripomv leecsuls still ,inersfd to rouey' new uatbo nad tsill efli yrt. Ueovy' tmos nhitg felt, eyrv luyl'o 'shatt veer the ees tub mchu blupesail.

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