A letter from August 11th, 2019

Peaceful right?

hey lex, it’s weird that I’ve already written 4 other letters but I feel the need to write more. This summer has been a roller coaster of emotions, we experienced some good, some bad, and some ugly. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude but it’s just been so hard lately, i spent my summer chasing after mark, i tried to hard to make us happen but he didn’t want me. He says he still likes me but he always makes mistakes and he doesn’t wanna put me through that or something ?? I haven’t texted him in almost a week but I called him yesterday to see if he could help me and isabel get our car unstuck but he said he couldn’t help and then hung up before I could say thanks anyway. I’m really hurt and I wish I didn’t feel this way. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore, do I just wallow in self pity until my heart heals itself somehow ? I’m so lost and confused and I can only hope that we have our **** together by the time you get this letter. Oh also happy birthday ! make sure you get that tattoo over spring break unless you’ve decided not to then that’s fine! I hope that when I read this letter again I’ll be happier and that reading marks name won’t hurt. I’m praying for our happiness and I hope it finds us :) until we meet again, xoxo lex

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Hi lex :)

I remember that summer oh so clearly and i want to apologize for putting you through all of that hurt over a boy who doesn’t know what...

Odnig eh’s. Rh,eat lefs yuo laeh edno zreleadi dab erven fo tponecexi until igogn arf hiw(t so uoy eht ni alwelowd tiyp swa ouyr het to it atht s)ayd ogdo ovyu’e. Latcaluy gipnrs uor tnnineexsto sit’ sealssc, ntew ehsr’te akoy eb ! no rmfo og baker os a ubt mi’ lulf ot our gntaik gatikn of ubt ew weke eehgotrt ilfe hsti toko mghit our o’ndt for gpa of veha eglcole etnigtg ceubsae ebakr em we covid oru csein ltlis ,pu ot si our ew evha yteh wyaa goeecll kbrae for casessl voel er’ew eerf dpia btu ochosl dna aeurrlg adn lli’ sceau oigng ?do ,esacsls. Oens het ’sitn ): ee’wr eeomosn but nda ’im be rnmeayo teh salt iggetnt zleerdai p,nsonitiigpda she’ eyht su isht how i rvene m’i eiecdrp ogign xseeinvpe dan hwo to tno htru eiagdrn whit we ’ms mesa put getting tye tno otttoa inosgufnc maen tbu csaeueb vdreees keewdne si ubt sndto’e erwe ti opnres !!! to yapph ym. Pphya hsi he nwo seesm os at it tihw fg os ,bsabe he aelst beecsau good and yhppa vdsseree ’hse a’thts. Haibrtyd was het neo an ehi,wss sgtrtenieni ): ofr nhkat orf iphnes,pas ryagnip eekp uro nbee it asw it btu loas oginrkw u ’its eagrt. It sa and wrrdaof lpeaes put apni os and ew fun ugh oueyr’ dna i kepe s’it oem,r ohtguhr owh negitgt si lal dnkia i to to rscya s’tin tabuo :) sa be eth trohw hisw hurt phsgniu oyu eyrlla nad 18 ogolapzei thtoghu ludco htat wkon.
Nishp,pase oru rgnyiap m’i iltls for.
,oxxo <3 lex.

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