A letter from August 11th, 2019

Peaceful right?

hey lex, it’s weird that I’ve already written 4 other letters but I feel the need to write more. This summer has been a roller coaster of emotions, we experienced some good, some bad, and some ugly. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude but it’s just been so hard lately, i spent my summer chasing after mark, i tried to hard to make us happen but he didn’t want me. He says he still likes me but he always makes mistakes and he doesn’t wanna put me through that or something ?? I haven’t texted him in almost a week but I called him yesterday to see if he could help me and isabel get our car unstuck but he said he couldn’t help and then hung up before I could say thanks anyway. I’m really hurt and I wish I didn’t feel this way. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore, do I just wallow in self pity until my heart heals itself somehow ? I’m so lost and confused and I can only hope that we have our **** together by the time you get this letter. Oh also happy birthday ! make sure you get that tattoo over spring break unless you’ve decided not to then that’s fine! I hope that when I read this letter again I’ll be happier and that reading marks name won’t hurt. I’m praying for our happiness and I hope it finds us :) until we meet again, xoxo lex

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Hi lex :)

I remember that summer oh so clearly and i want to apologize for putting you through all of that hurt over a boy who doesn’t know what...

H’se nogdi. Hatt oyur voue’y to pity bad odog uoy rfa eawllwdo doen utiln pxecineto swa a,erth eslf ni a)ysd hte of ouy so (hiwt gigon nreve ti eth elha lazeeird. Teheortg yallutca ythe od? gap thsere’ oyka lfie mhtgi apid breka icodv our fo on is aknigt ocoshl evlo haev ew caeslss, ew entw ngogi btu be ootk no’td ! csaue lli’ nad fllu rbkae ubacsee utb wree’ ’im eocllge uro ofr fo sesslca uor ti’s so tlils away gpnirs shit ogcelle ingtak go to ew evah a u,p me kewe feer ncise eoninntxtes but gareulr our ot beakr fomr sssc,eal gittgne ruo nad rfo. The but yoneamr nepsixvee to put ): mean thye btu nosfnciug aslt rnvee nda eb eosn ngigtte m’s eth ’mi tey ym ot eekdewn aesm not turh eubscae gradnei is !!! tigengt its’n osneeom ’mi eew’r btu eo’stnd yahpp dna senrop rwee deprcei we desvree it ottaot su how i not how ehs’ tish npst,dgiaoipni ezdraeli whti going. Ehs’ tt’ash thwi meses so bsea,b elsta pyhpa ish apyph so at sbcuaee esdrseve he onw it ogdo dna he fg. Drihaytb sesih,w neo an ): eenb saw uor ti u workngi tinetensrig tkahn it teh p,ssapnieh yinprag rof but its’ peke sloa ofr saw ategr. Os teh it lzooigepa woh as :) hiws ghu touba nda lal pguisnh to and rlyael itgnget nad eb rascy apni i toghhtu wrtoh eyro’u we hatt ,meor uyo frardow ’sti i esleap ot ’tnis is ownk lcoud ekpe as ndaik utp nfu grthuho adn hrut 18.
Ruo pnashe,psi lislt aingypr im’ ofr.
,xoox xel 3<.

This user has written an update to this letter.To see what they wrote, please

Write new comment

Load more comments