A letter from August 11th, 2019

Peaceful right?

hey lex, it’s weird that I’ve already written 4 other letters but I feel the need to write more. This summer has been a roller coaster of emotions, we experienced some good, some bad, and some ugly. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude but it’s just been so hard lately, i spent my summer chasing after mark, i tried to hard to make us happen but he didn’t want me. He says he still likes me but he always makes mistakes and he doesn’t wanna put me through that or something ?? I haven’t texted him in almost a week but I called him yesterday to see if he could help me and isabel get our car unstuck but he said he couldn’t help and then hung up before I could say thanks anyway. I’m really hurt and I wish I didn’t feel this way. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore, do I just wallow in self pity until my heart heals itself somehow ? I’m so lost and confused and I can only hope that we have our **** together by the time you get this letter. Oh also happy birthday ! make sure you get that tattoo over spring break unless you’ve decided not to then that’s fine! I hope that when I read this letter again I’ll be happier and that reading marks name won’t hurt. I’m praying for our happiness and I hope it finds us :) until we meet again, xoxo lex

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Hi lex :)

I remember that summer oh so clearly and i want to apologize for putting you through all of that hurt over a boy who doesn’t know what...

Odngi eh’s. Odgo enod neerv dab ggnoi atth fo wdelaolw ntuil yuo het ot in teh heal wh(it lesf at,ehr far ti ezdralei uoy poxetncei ydas) so ruoy was yve’uo pyit. Eolv tnnxnetoeis no eb ootk we uor leif oru kebra veha is so tod’n npsigr hets’er brkea agp go i’m me codvi grrlaue idpa but full ot necsi gtinteg ofr nda ywaa rofm oeclgle ogleelc itangk fo hmitg lsceass rou hety a pu, ew ! ’tis lsecs,as adn oru wetn useac earbk igngo eaucbse ew looshc keew er’we efer rou lilts sslac,se to fo ?od ubt gntkai fro ubt etertohg l’li ltauycla hist ahve ykao. Mena evdrees ): decepri tbu oeemsno re’we ottota iedgrna ngogi whti aeromyn tno tbu nad ts’enod !!! to norpse i urth fngoniusc eb ’mi eh’s sm’ ti osne ,isiatippnndog tals ewer tbu yte t’isn erevn ehty eht to tingteg seubace pexenivse ton het tpu isht ’mi si same who ew ttginge wekende my deirlzea us how nad payhp. Fg he yhapp seems os seh’ ish nda it ta so abb,se tah’st yppha beecuas etlas tiwh onw esresdev ogdo he. Haspips,ne for ti ryhdbati asw tnahk it ofr swa eben teh utb pagirny u laos wshise, eno rou entriintges :) it’s atger orwnikg kepe na. And ew rwoth adkin dan aotub plesae arleyl ’yoeur and ielpazoog 81 yracs r,ome be inpa rhut wrfoard ghoturh ugh fun ahtt uihgpns os i stin’ etgtngi adn sa i could is ot put sa it thhugto ot :) ishw lla is’t oknw eekp teh you owh.
Im’ ruo peispash,n rof ygarpni ilslt.
,ooxx 3< exl.

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