A letter from August 11th, 2019

Peaceful right?

hey lex, it’s weird that I’ve already written 4 other letters but I feel the need to write more. This summer has been a roller coaster of emotions, we experienced some good, some bad, and some ugly. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude but it’s just been so hard lately, i spent my summer chasing after mark, i tried to hard to make us happen but he didn’t want me. He says he still likes me but he always makes mistakes and he doesn’t wanna put me through that or something ?? I haven’t texted him in almost a week but I called him yesterday to see if he could help me and isabel get our car unstuck but he said he couldn’t help and then hung up before I could say thanks anyway. I’m really hurt and I wish I didn’t feel this way. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore, do I just wallow in self pity until my heart heals itself somehow ? I’m so lost and confused and I can only hope that we have our **** together by the time you get this letter. Oh also happy birthday ! make sure you get that tattoo over spring break unless you’ve decided not to then that’s fine! I hope that when I read this letter again I’ll be happier and that reading marks name won’t hurt. I’m praying for our happiness and I hope it finds us :) until we meet again, xoxo lex

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Hi lex :)

I remember that summer oh so clearly and i want to apologize for putting you through all of that hurt over a boy who doesn’t know what...

Seh’ diong. You ti ni fo w(hti ruoy oyu igong rh,aet dba tunli y’evuo ytpi etonipecx taht nreev far hael lweaodlw eht node lfes ays)d rdaleezi was to ogdo so teh. Ykao e,sslcsa nda rkeab llsit rbeka os scnie em htgim he’tres on ! euasc spgrin rfo leif ginatk ot ?do go cessl,as rmof ruo thgoetre utb llcegeo ayaw fo kngiat we aipd si p,u ’mi aveh ruo rou fo tbu we hsit uor a nad ookt eyht is’t tub lhcoos guralre rou ot fere lful selssac be ewtn gingo beucaes ngtiegt tnxtnieneso ewer’ pga eekw love vaeh eclelog aebkr fro icdvo ew il’l cyullaat n’dot. Odnapiipnts,gi yte neewekd dtseo’n btu edreipc saem sm’ nto ’im teh im’ tbu ingtteg siht !!! ranedgi eseevdr eb ttoaot woh esno drlaezie tup weer eooenms rveen ym nti’s nmaorye ehs’ to prseno het ngogi nto happy ): cfgnuosni ebasceu stla owh yteh dan e’wer i tub mnea ot pesxiveen twih dna ew us ti gnteigt truh is. E’sh ssverdee yppah aebbs, ha’stt odgo fg sih onw os ithw he so at ebasceu slaet meses it he yphap nda. Bene eno utb eht thakn se,swhi ofr u ist’ pkee wrogikn agipyrn it was ): wsa uro rfo rytidhab aetgr egnniisrtet an n,esasphpi it saol. Ihsw nda nikad ownk yuo ti’ns hhtourg seaepl sa teh inpa as 18 all we uoabt orwfrad adn it i ot nfu si dna eb ouldc :) mre,o nad hrut oruy’e tpu uhtghto ipooaegzl ot gspuihn yscar hwo os ’sit i ghu torwh egttign yalelr keep htta.
Mi’ ruo rof rnapgyi tlsil ipspnsaeh,.
Ox,ox elx <3.

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